I understand your concern about your family and loved ones that have helped you.
But the WT doesn't have a policy to help those who doubt or lose their faith. If a JW stops believing they are cut off and shunned. This is terrible and we must make a choice to either stay JWs for family or leave and be shunned.
A terrible choice I know but many on here have made a choice and survived and live with that choice with the help of each other on the board.
Kate xx