Posts by talesin

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The Pain of Coming to a Decision

by daniel-p in

jw
friends

it's been at least a couple years since i've posted anything on here, and much longer than that since when i was active.

ten years ago i first came here all in turmoil over my disillusionment of my beliefs.

i've been through lots of ups and downs since then.

talesin

I don't want any part of it. I thought I could live with it, before. I thought I could compromise. But I was wrong. I was wrong about myself and my ability to stagger on in the wilderness of my own spiritual void, forever and perfectly alone. I have grown numb, laying at her side in bed. Spooning her and feeling the softness of her skin and the warmth of her body, but none of the relief of having arrived at where I need to be after out wandering for so long.

This made me feel for you, the heartache. You'll figure it out, whatever's best. <3

((((kairos))))

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No Soliciting signage and JW Policy

by Oubliette in

does anyone have a copy of the boe letter directing publishers to not go into apartment complexes and/or condominium complexes with no soliciting signs?

i ask because yesterday and buttheaded jw (that obviously had no idea who i am or my past) was knocking on doors in our condo complex.

he would have had to drive past a sign which clearly states "no solicitation or material distribution.".

SIAR - that would have been like my father - he always took the route of 'respect the other person'. I have often wondered why he 'stepped down'. There is no room for common sense and respect for the person, in the JWS.

Good on ya! xx

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Rivalry among the sisters

by Esmeralda001 in

when i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.

i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).

i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.

talesin

LHG - just realized this week, I am 'older' hahaha. I still miss those friendships, and my grandparents. Old people are special - most of them have lived long enough; seen it all, done it all; that they are no longer judgmental. I think that was always one of the attractions for me --- also, I loved hearing their stories of days gone by.

Those older folk, probably loved you a lot, and you might be surprised by how many of them secretly KNOW, why you left! You know what I mean? They keep their counsel (silence), but many of them see the difference in the Society, and probably realize how corrupt it is. I bet some of them are glad you have your freedom. *smiles*

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Rivalry among the sisters

by Esmeralda001 in

when i was first introduced to the "truth", i was so distracted by the love and affection that the members were showing me that i was ready to convert into the religion without thinking twice.

i was conviced that jws were god's people (i still think some of them are).

i made it my goal to get baptized as i wanted to be part of the "only" religion that produce such good people.

talesin

Someone told me about this later in life, and said that as a JW, they always thought I was 'snotty'. I asked him why and REALLY? It was because of my dressing up (okay) and being a 'goody-two shoes', plus I never spoke much or 'hung out' with the other kids at assemblies and such. Well, I was very shy, and also thought I was too fat, bad hair, not good enough. I didn't speak much with kids my age because my parents kept a tight leash on me.

So I apologize to all you, who were kids my age, who thought I was 'snotty'. I would LOVE to have been your friends. Unfortunately, I was controlled by my parents, and "Barbie" would have been a better name than my real one, to describe what I seemed to be. A puppet, and mother's little doll. (Inside, it was a whole 'nuther story).

This makes me even happier that I left 'young', and had to neither endure the antics of elderettes, or (horror of horrors!) BEEN one! And, now, while typing and reflecting on this, I wonder how many of those 'elderettes' are sad, lonely, and wish they were dead, like I did when I was the perfect JW 'Barbie'. It's so SAD. xoxo

EDIT: LHG - my friends were the seniors - you got that right! smh *sigh*

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No Soliciting signage and JW Policy

by Oubliette in

does anyone have a copy of the boe letter directing publishers to not go into apartment complexes and/or condominium complexes with no soliciting signs?

i ask because yesterday and buttheaded jw (that obviously had no idea who i am or my past) was knocking on doors in our condo complex.

he would have had to drive past a sign which clearly states "no solicitation or material distribution.".

talesin

I recall being told the same as someone else above; that we weren't soliciting. The technicalities in terms may differ from place to place (legally), not sure.

At my old flat, I had cut out the headline part of the Watchtower (TM) magazine, drawn a red line through it, and taped it to my mailbox with the words "No soliciting or Jehovah's Witnesses". Specific. And I knew there would be a conversation in the car later (who lives in THAT house?) : P

Edit: Of course, I'm sure you are correct that was an eon ago! We didn't even know what gated communities were back then. xx

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Need advice on fade...

by StarTrekAngel in

the elder that was the coordinator of the boe has just left town to attend one of those infamous schools with this wife.

the view is that he will most likely return to be appointed co. not sure he is going to stick around here for a lot longer.. i am saying this because, despite them knowing he will return when the school is over, they removed him from the coordinator position and appointed someone else.

it was announced last night that the biggest jerk of the group of elders is now the coordinator of the boe.

talesin

STA - it must be hard, living on 'tenterhooks' all the time. My heart goes out to you. xoxo

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Merry Christmas! Or merry Christmas on the sly! Ho! Ho! Ho!

by purrpurr in

jw
friends

just to say merry christmas and a happy new year!

i hope wherever you are that you have a lovely holiday, even if like me your celebrating on the sly hehe in which case happy christmas on the sly.

xxxxxxxxxx.

talesin

Happy Christmas, purrpurr!

And it if's on the sly, don't worry, we shall keep your secret! <3

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Do you believe in a personal God?

by StephaneLaliberte in

there may be a god, but i doubt he has anything to do with us now.

i cannot reconcile concentration camps such as auschwitz, which i have visited, and people praying before their meal, thanking him, who did nothing.

here is an example: frank has a kid named johnny.

talesin

cj- how true! And that is what science is all about. In a nutshell, "WHY?" Good to see you! xx

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Do you believe in a personal God?

by StephaneLaliberte in

there may be a god, but i doubt he has anything to do with us now.

i cannot reconcile concentration camps such as auschwitz, which i have visited, and people praying before their meal, thanking him, who did nothing.

here is an example: frank has a kid named johnny.

talesin

Agreed. "Suffer the little children to come unto me." (KJV, I think). Where are you GOD, when the children were and are being tortured, murdered, raped, forced to be soldiers? Pffffttttt! *shakes hand at sky* Come down here, and deal with it like a real GOD! Oh, right, you are just a figment of people's imagination. grrr

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So, Christimas....

by Phaedra in

jw
friends

love the music.color, season's greetings, etc.

even have a desktop tree.. neighbors on the block are all lit up (since thanksgiving = awesome!).

the colors are gorgeous!.

talesin

Here's the Christmas collection of Simon's cat, hope it makes you laugh. Merry Christmas, and a happy solstice

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZNfGVE-_rms