Hi, thedepressedsoul.
My best friend growing up is a double-lifer. I have never understood how a life of deceit can be fulfilling. Always looking over your shoulder, having to have a good memory, hahaha! because you would always be in danger of being caught in a lie.
Truth be told, I resented that person for a long time, because they had their family and I did not have mine. It's funny, because that person was a speed freak in the 80s had a child out of wedlock, and well, a lot of shit that I think is okay - but I got DF'd and lost all my family for what? Playing 'doctor' with my best friend ....
Eventually, I grew up and realized that my double-lifer friend had their own issues to deal with, and I had no reason to be resentful. We all choose our own path, and hell, that friend never did anything to *me*, they just made the choice to do what was necessary to keep in the family.
Power to ya! And, well, as to the consequences --- your screen name says it all.
xoxo