Hi, and welcome to the forum. I remember Onacruse, Craig, very well. He was a brilliant and funny person whose pain ran deep. The Watchtower really did a number on him, and his passing was very sad. Many people loved him a great deal.
You are doing exactly the thing you need to do, and I feel, honouring his memory by becoming free yourself, and taking steps to heal. Keep on a healthy path, and don't bury your pain inside.
My two uncles, who passed in recent years, were some of my greatest cheerleaders, and influences in my life. Hold those memories of "The Uncle Monster" in your heart, and know that Uncle Craig would be happy that you are finding your own way. xx tal