Oompa,
It is part of the psychological effects of the religion. It is difficult of members of a cult to aknowledge that everything they had been taught and previously accepted was based on an illusion and are not true. My recommendation is to completely steer free of anything related to Witnessism altogether.
Once you become engaged by one of the hot button subjects of Witnessism, you will find an auto matic reflex that triggers the emotions all over again. I understand the struggle to break free. But please know from someone who has learned, there is a high level of peace and tranquility (more than I have ever experienced within the religion) of letting go and accepting the true facts associated with this life.
I rarely even ever look at this web site, (it seems so pointless to morass and rhuminate) but once in a great while I like to share my own experience with someone.
Enjoy the real life!