sorry lost ya after ya said porn hahaha jk. i never led a double life, now i wont say that i didnt have things that bothered me such as f&^%ing cussing and other things. yet i didnt go out and do what lots of others did, reason being i truely felt it was the truth and squashed my doubts. thing is i had the normal feelings that god put into all of us........ and i was forced to bottle them up inside. can you say depression, feelings of unworth ect. i felt i wasnt good enough because i had such a hard time just accepting things. SURELY other witnesses didnt have to struggle with _______(insert subject of choice) like i did. now i cussed and OMG watched R rated movies occasionally, but i didnt smoke or do drugs or have sex. i did drink a little but no running around partying. now much of this is what i shoulda been doing as a normal person. i should define what leading a double life meant for me i guess. i always thought that was when you just didnt give a f*&^ and did whatever you wanted without regards to consequences, except when you were at the kingdom hell. i heard all the damn preaching about how horrible it is for people to live that double life and how bad they were for leading it. i was always afraid that i was in fact to close to leading one because of my language and the people that i always became friends with at work. but anyways thats how i looked at it. i wasnt perfect by any means but i didnt go all out seeking a REAL NORMAL LIFE while still going to the dingbumb ball. afterwards......... heck i aint gonna lie, i still didnt go out hard core partying but i damn sure made my own decisions as to what i should watch or what i should do.
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Did You Lead A "Double Life"?
by minimus ini believe jehovah's witnesses are trained to learn how to live a double life.
we were trained to use subterfuge with teachers, the law, doctors and the courts.
we were trained in "theocratic strategy" .
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Does this happen at your work?
by Chimene inok, it's vent time.
i'm being a good girl, staying off jwd.
i have a pile of work to do, and it never fails.
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primitivegenius
should that not work start talking about an INFECTION you have say......... your toe nail is so infected (be sure to spit as you talk since your in their faces heheheh) that its turning black and blue and smells soo horrible. if they have eaten it should make them sick to their stomach enough if you keep talking about it that they will leave.........
ps wont work if ya wearing open toed shoes so they can see the nails..... but bout anything can be INFECTED hehehehh
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Does this happen at your work?
by Chimene inok, it's vent time.
i'm being a good girl, staying off jwd.
i have a pile of work to do, and it never fails.
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primitivegenius
just go to lunch......... ORDER SOMETHING WITH LOTS OF ONIONS AND GARLIC........... and if they stop by after to talk stand up and get real close to their face and as you talk enunciate with big breathy puffs of air
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I might be going back to the kingdumb hall !!
by boy@crossroads ini'm thinking about going back to the meetings.
hopefully just sunday meetings for awhile.
not because i want to or that i feel any inward guilt to return.
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primitivegenius
just be sure to partake at the memorial........ try and get more than one glass of the wine hehehehhehehe
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primitivegenius
MMMMMMMMMMMM TACOZ
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"Help! my dad is watching Pornography" Cries of a JW teen.
by Dune inas some of you may know, i'm still an active witness and i'm still in the planning stages of my "escape".
i met a sister at a district convention a year ago and i've been talking to her on aim for a while.
i think she is very amusing considering that she is very intelligent and often voices her views on the doctrinal falicies of the wtbs, but when its my turn to give my two cents she makes it seem as if i'm the only poztate.
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primitivegenius
back in da damn day i had to go wif my dad on one of his many bible studies grrrrrrrrr. dude had pics of naked wimmenz all over his walls so we were sure to leave the magazines back then dealing with porn...... hum..... now why did i INSIST on going with him EVERY TIME. musta juss been real SPIRITUAL
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I want a refund . . .
by cruzanheart inafter reading all those threads and articles about how much money the wtbts has squirreled away and invested and after volunteering to serve birthday cupcakes and punch at a homeless shelter run by the combined efforts of first presbyterian church and first methodist in downtown dallas, i have decided that i want my money back.. i want back every single cent that i ever contributed to that jabba the hut of an organization that just sits on its money and never uses a penny of it to benefit its members or the rest of humanity.
i want back the $10,000 that my dad "loaned" the society in the 1970's that they -- 10 years later -- strongly suggested he just give to them to save them the trouble of writing a check.. i want to be paid for the 13 years of regular pioneer service that i wasted on that organization.
let's see, at roughly 100 hours a month (that's what the requirement was back then), 1200 hours a year times 13 + 15,600. hmmm, okay, i'll take minimum wage for it -- isn't that $6.50 an hour now?
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primitivegenius
hey dont forget the time spent building them dang kingdom and ASSembly hallz. construction wagez them. hell if we all went together we could start up our OWN PUBLISHING EMPIRE and try for world domination............... nah ill take mine in RAND stock
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Just checking in: Life is GREAT and I'm SO HAPPY
by berylblue inas an ex-jw.. for those of you who are wondering if there is life beyond the wtbts -.
yes, there is.. a very fulfilling, exciting, satisfying life.. i am now a store manager candidate for a national pharmacy chain - will have my own store within 6 months - .
my grandson is beautiful and both my children are in constant contact.. i will be getting married to a wonderful man in a few months - and.
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primitivegenius
yahhhhhhhhhhhhhh trolls are bad ass congrats beyrl
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WAS THIS A NO-NO FOR YOUR CONG. SHEPHERDING VISITS?
by juni ini don't know where the elders learned this one.
maybe it was local - i don't know.
but.... these were shepherding calls to build you up spiritually so therefore no serving of coffee or cookies were allowed.. was this true with your congregation's shepherding visits?.
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primitivegenius
k i had shep calls every first sunday for years. they rotated book studies and when it was your turn then you also had the "privledge" of cleaning the hall and yard work. the elders and ms(me) met and were sent to each major house in that particular book study group. generally always snacks so at least that part didnt suck....... now years and years later... new co said NO MORE SHEP VISITS. except when you been baddie i guess. was a damn good relief to me tho, and when i was makeing a trip to my folks house and saw the elders cars after i had left i kept on driving lol. i went and got lost for an hour and came back and damnit still there grrrrrrrrrrrr.
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To Fade or Not Fade
by daniel-p inso it's been five months that i've been on jwd and i've made a lot of progress.
first i want to thank everyone, wholeheartedly, for the encouragement i've recieved here.
when i first posted i was still an ms, and being used in the cong.
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primitivegenius
it all depends on your family, and the relationship that you have with them. i faded over three years ago to keep the fam. i had to move over a thousand miles away to keep them at bay. they know i dont go but they are afraid to ask. suits me fine. i also dont feel bound by their rules so i refuse to DA. always up to you tho since only you know your fam. what i love tho is when family and witnesses look at you and your marriage and life and cant figure out how or why you can possibly have a good life without the dubs....... its quite a trip