I guess I'm not ready to make that final leap and unless I submit to some type of torture it will be the outward sign of rebellion thats needed to push my family away.
I was looking to study a publication and do an honest examination of it with him to see what his and my wifes reaction is. I'll even try to dismiss the contradictions so it looks like I'm truly moving ahead...when the contradictions keep coming maybe they will have to admit if only internally this is not all its cracked up to be.