Hi Northerngirl
You need to do what ultimately brings you happiness....
I'm not sure how you can make the transition back unless you never really considered the information on this forum to be correct or truthful.
Sometimes I wish I could go back to a former mindset just to make all the pain stop for me and my family.....but I can't, no more than I could accept never showing love to my daughter because a small group of self appointed doctrinal changing men decided what was Gods will at this very moment.
If you are truly going back because its what you want then I suggest you don't frequent this site, unless you can handle knowing the truth and living something else.