Sorry that post went through before I was done.
But what I want to say is get out of the toxic environment if u can. It’s not worth it to stay in that. If u are also Indian then like me you will have the double trouble of JW teachings plus Indian conservatism. That’s a lot of judgementality (is that a word?) in one place.
Fear of Other people Constantly judging me modified my behavior to make act in ways that i now regret. I didn’t even know who I was as a person till my late twenties.
My heart goes out to you.
This boyfriend that you have may or may not be the one you spend your life with. But your parents are for life. The bf revelation ruined my relationship with my family for years following that. My dad still occasionally treats me as an outcast and “regales” about the time I brought a “bad name” on the family. Get away from that. Distance really does help
i don’t believe you will be disfellowshipped - this may be dependent on how conservative your elders are. Whatever the case, leave Home and take som time away from a toxic environment. I wish I did it earlier myself.
keep us posted about how things turn out for you x