Yes I see the problem, When I was 18 I once thought and spoke like you. That wasn't the person I wanted to be, so I bought myself that railway ticket and have travelled around, and discovered my 18 year old thinking was really quite, unattractive.
Well, I see in your desperation you're back to attempting to insult and hurt me personally. It was quite ugly of you to boast about that the first time you failed at it, this failure is no prettier.
In any event, you've no idea how I speak or think. Once again, you ignorantly presume more than you can know. Do you see the problem?