I've been out for a long long time, apart from immediate family issues I'm very relaxed and generally happy with my life,
I still have freinds who have left the JWs and we can socialise without discussing much about those old days.
My resurgence of feeling I wanted to re engage with JWs has been the appearance of the trolley/cart lazy, smug blasé hand outstreched come and get your salvation here approach to ' spreading the good news ' I feel I always have to give them some ttatt to think about, and then just bid them good day.
the thought that at one time I might have participated in that activity is so foreign to me now brings a great feeling of satisfaction as I walk away from their little stall of delusion.
Best wishes.