I went door-to-door for about 40 years. I never had mean thoughts about people getting it at Armaggedon...guess I just wasn't in the loop on that. I had a few doors slammed in my face and my friends and I usually found that funny!!! I met a lot of very nice people who didn't take the literature but I didn't really blame them! It was a chore to read that stuff all the time. My family didn't say stuff like Danny's father said to him. I heard other people say it in the group, but I just let it roll off my back...I mean where did it say that in the Bible? I remember sitting in meetings and looking up scriptures and reading along with the speaker and if he applied it to what I believed it meant, I just silently refused his take on it. Now that I look back, I wonder how as a kid of 10 or 12, I could think like that? I have NEVER believed that all people who weren't JW's were not going to make it. When I studied with people, I would usually read those paragraphs in the book but made it a point to never discuss it. We just kind of blew over that part!!! I could not bring myself ever to believe or tell anyone that the elders were "princes." I knew better!!! I guess that's why I'm here now...just couldn't keep believing their lies and for the most part looking back, I don't think I ever believed a lot of it.
Since I was raised in this religion, it took me a long time to get out of it. I did believe that I was doing what God wanted me to do...going to the meetings and door-to-door, etc. When I got really sick was when I started to get bad feelings about the religion in itself. All my service buddies, and I had a ton, kept coming by my house and trying to get me back out in service or to the meetings. I was too sick and in too much pain and they just ignored that! All I kept hearing was how I had to get to the meetings!!! At the time I was having to take strong pain meds everyday, now I get spinal epidurals for the pain. I could not get far from the bed...and all they could say to me was that I needed to get to the KH! (My drs. were all telling me to stay mostly in bed until they could figure out what to do!) I saw how programmed they were and I realized that I had been the same way. Then I got an e-mail about the U.N.....and the rest is history!
My point is: I don't think all JW's believe that they are the only ones going to live through Armaggedon. A lot of them have family outside the org and I know for a fact they don't believe all of them are going to die. In my estimate, I'd say that it would be about a 70/30 split on those that do actually believe what is written in the Watchtower...with 70 being the majority. I knew a lot of elders, pioneers, etc. that taught what they were supposed to but didn't really think it was going to happen that way. Of course, it looks like a number of them are leaving and so that will leave an even larger majority to the thinking that everyone must die, die, die!
Swalker