i like playing my drums, i like big band jazz, i love good food..i dont like suffering and i dont like prayer because i can never be sure him up there is listening plus the fact that im not babtised and i dont do his will so i dont expect him to even hear my prayers.
there are times when i have cursed jehovah most vilely when im really pissed off and then i'll feel bad later and offer an apology later.
for example my health is suffering, i have some kind of skin problem like exema which keeps me awake itching and in pain
and its at times like that when i wanna curse god in the most hurtful way so that he will feel the pain and discomfort i feel when im trying to sleep and cant because my skin is itching so badly.
i just dont feel any reason to give thanks to god because i know that no matter what it is im thanking him for, sooner or later something is bound to go wrong.
i also dont like god's way of loving,
telling me i shouldnt sin when my skin is itching like crazy doesnt help me
if anything it makes me more frustrated.
i dont feel i get what i need from god so i say to hell with him.