Hi,
When I began questioning the teachings of the WT,when I was sent so-called 'apostate' info I wrote to Bethal.I wanted answers....They never replied but sent elders around,so I showed them what I had.I asked one of the Elders "When do you say Jesus came?" he said 1914.I then showed then info about Russell.One of the Elders was loving and kind,the other one strict a bit like police tactics."we love you" and "Our kids grew up together" and " Put it all in the bin" and so on.I even let them pray for me then because they convinced me all 'apostates' were nasty had an axe to grind,and I was confused.I was to be shown mercy.
Later I received some videos ,Ray Franz was on one.Lorri Mac on another,and more info (no computer then).so again I showed Elders.brothers/sisters.The strict elder who called on me before rang me up.He told me he didn't believe everything in the WT either,but where else would you find such loving,clean people to be with.I also heard even if there is nothing at the end of it all this is where we prefer to be.I never joined for that reason,I did not want a kind of 'social club' I joined because I thought I had 'the truth',I said "If only one person has the truth in a tin shed somewhere then this is where I would want to be".
Because I started to ask questions and talking to JWS about it all I received a phone call from a sister who in disgust gave me some 'apostate' scriptures to read.I felt petrified.My mind a muddle.More visits from JWS,and this Elder knew everything,all the things I was finding out he knew,and he agreed with me on some of it.I loved this Brother and his wife.But I could see he was agitated over my questions especialy my Qs on blood as he was a hospital Lliason Elder.I showed him a WT victims memorial tract.I asked him why it was that the Law on blood was given to the Jews yet they did not have aproblem with blood transfusions...Why? His reply was that he didn't know but they argue with God.(BTW I have refused blood ).Orthodox Jews take blood transfusions.Christianised Jews do.
After some time and more research I began to throw away my WT books and Bible I told a sister,she sent me a JB Phillips (paraphrased) NT in modern English for schools,sort of said in disgust 'well read that'.Inside 'Apostate' scriptures were underlined to scare me such as 2 Tim 3 10-14.and 2Tim 2 Hymenaus and Philetus and cancer.2 Tim 1 20-21.2 thess: 15,2 John 10-11,1 John 18-19,1 John 17-18,2 Peter 2 and more.
I WAS PETRIFIED, did not want to be 'apostate' with no hope,no nothing,I prayed about all of it and decided to read this JB Phillips Bible NT.and blessings and Grace were showered on me for this is the one that showed me that helped me the most.
Don't be afraid of the WT it is a man made religion/cult they are just men wielding power and influence over people's lives.