It's going to be my first Christmas celebration for many years as well, and I admit to feeling a little strange about it, but I am going to have a tree and decorations. I don't have family in the jws, so their calling isn't an issue, and I have an invitation to dinner on Christmas Day, so hopefully I should be ok.
just let yourself relax and enjoy it. I find this year I am listening to the Christmas music more on the radio and trying to learn the words so I can sing along..
I still ask people for advice that have celebrated all their lives, what their family traditions are with Christmas, ask for decorating or craft ideas.. Each year I am enjoying Christmas more and more.. as it becomes slowly a part of me, a part of my tradition..
The first year I had my tree, I bought an artificial one, which was perfect for an apartment, not too big.. It is still fine in size. I picked up some boxed sets or ornaments and only a few specialty ornaments. It all adds up when you are first celebrating. Then after Christmas I picked up more with the clearance/close out sales.. each year I get a get a few more. I'm amazed now as my 3rd Christmas comes along how many I have now.