i have been studying with the jw for just over 3 years.i have always believed in god and the bible. the path my life took ended up with me being a single parent of 4 children.
the jws led me down the path of the "truth". my grandmother disowned me and i just couldnt understand why.i was told that satan was lurking round every corner trying to get me away from god. i just wanted god to be happy with me. i started to feel uncomfortable with what i was being taught but thought that if i studied more i would understand it eventually.
we stopped celebrating christmas birthdays etc.then i decided after alot of rumours got to me to just look at the internet. after all if this was the "truth" what harm could it do .i was quite shocked at what i found and after much thought i decided to cancel my studies.so i could think what to do next.
im glad to have had my eyes opened as to what damage this religion can cause.i am quite sad also that i hadnt discovered the "true" religion.but also relieved that this was not IT.
now i am in a dilemma. i dont want them to come here anymore but i am afraid that when i tell them i do not wish to continue they will try to change my mind. i am confident that i wont be swayed but i just dont want the upset. i had made some friends although im not sure if they will be allowed to speak to me after and also if they shun me im not sure how i will be able to deal with it . any advice would be great. and although we have celebrated xmas this year i am feeling guilty that i deprived my children of this for 3 years but i am trying to make up for it and i hope that they will forgive me.
on the positive side my mum is so glad i discovered for myself what she tried to tell me in the beginning .and at least she isnt doing the i told you so bit.
please advise me on the best course of action . best wishes to all x