the pain comes back worse than before, but like any addiction, you keep doing it because the relief is, for a few moments, beautiful.
it is beautiful....(((tetra))) why is it that the things we love the most...so bad for us?
i'm proud to say that i haven't cut in over a year, but it's always there in the back of my mind. it's a crutch i'll always have if it ever gets too hard or the emotional pain is too much to bear. living w/ a warehouse manager doesn't make it much easier...boxcutters laying around the house EVERYWHERE....sometimes when i get too upset or nervous, i'll find myself picking at or scratching that spot on my arm. my left arm is so ugly...all the scars heaped up in that one spot. i'm thinking of getting a tattoo to cover it...something pretty and feminine...something that doesn't remind me.
to all who mutilate, or used to
luv, jojo