Genesis...It does get better with time. At first II felt like I was coming off of a bad drug, especially when I had contact with JWs. I sought help of a therapist who had experience with those who had left cults. The WT (as other controlling relgions) use some powerful conditioning tecniques, but the patterns can be broken. I still find it is best to avoid Jws as much as possible and this gets easier with time also because JWs do not want to be around those who are "inactive" in the faith. They are trained to avoid such ones and I think it is easier for them to do so because it shakes them up too. I think most realize deep down that it is all BS, but they are still chosing to stay in the trance for one reason or another--fear being a big one.
I wish you well and my only suggestion is to get there and live your dreams and when you begin to do this the WT will start to fade into the distance.
the best to you,
cybs