letter to elder (part 2 of da)

by BlackSwan of Memphis 22 Replies latest jw experiences

  • BlackSwan of Memphis
    BlackSwan of Memphis

    Ok, I’d mentioned in my da post that I would show you guys the letter that I wrote to the po after he sent me his card.

    I thought maybe it might be of interest.

    I never heard back from him, I guess I got my point across.

    Thank you for the kind words and sentiments. Terry and I want you to know that we think of you as family. You had mentioned that you think of me as a kid sister that you don’t want to lose, I certainly don’t want to lose you as my brother. For me you’ll always be my brother, despite what comes of this.

    Thank you for your offer to sit down and talk, but I am going to decline. I will give you my email address and if you would like you can send me your questions and I will try to answer as quickly and honestly as I can.

    These last few months have been difficult. My family has been repeatedly requesting answers from me as to why I’m no longer attending meetings. At times, these conversations became fairly heated. I have been pushed to do something that I sincerely did not want to do. What they really wanted was for me to sit down and talk to the elders about my problems. I have my own personal reasons for not doing so, I hope that hasn’t offended you.

    Paulette called me Halloween day and left a message that she had called you. It was then that I realized that they weren’t going to let this go and the time had come to take care of matters.

    The reasons I have for leaving the Witnesses is a bit more complicated than what I laid out in my letter. I tried to pen all of the experience, but truthfully it was becoming more of a book rather then a letter. I doubted people would read that.

    If you would like I could complete that and then let you read it.

    One of the other reasons I refrained from going too far into depth has already been demonstrated: It is my understanding that my family members have burnt their letters. I figured that writing a hundred page letter might be cathartic for me, but by page 3 they would already have the grill going.

    I bring this up so that you understand ever more clearly that the decision I had made to stop attending meetings was a matter I had taken seriously.

    What I did not include in the letter were the scriptural errors that I had found early on. Those were what piqued my attention and caused me to keep reading the Scriptures without the aid of the w and a and further to eventually investigate the publications with the intent of making sure that all was in alignment with what the bible taught.

    My research of the publications turned up things that were not only not in alignment with bible truth, but also were incredibly hypocritical, in light of the WTS constant barrage of criticism against Christendom.

    When I talk about reading the bible without the aid of the publications, I am meaning not only not

    using the publications to explain matters that are unclear, I am meaning not allowing them to interpret or influence how the Scriptures are to be understood.

    By so doing, I found several passages in the bible that had a meaning that was much different from what the WTS has taught in the past and continues to teach.

    There were a few more meetings that I had made after these discoveries, during those meetings I found a few things very interesting that I thought I would share with you.

    One of the things I found, was how often the WTS impresses on the minds of the witnesses the concept of the Organization. More often then not witnesses are reading and hearing that being loyal to the Organization equals being loyal to God. That is not in alignment with bible teaching. The writings of men are not equal to the writings of the bible. All that does not come from the Scriptures needs to be critically examined.

    If we are told constantly that being loyal to the Organization equals being loyal to God, then we slowly acclimate our minds to believing that what comes from the Organization is coming from God. If we keep taking that for granted, then we stop reading the publications with a view to making sure that it is indeed the proper food at the proper time and we just accept whatever they give us. When a person continues to do that, they don’t know whether or not they are receiving spiritually healthy food and can unknowingly become spiritually malnourished. Think how often the witnesses are taught that the faithful and discreet slave are providing the proper food at the proper time, how thankful they should be. How often do witnesses carefully examine what they are being fed, before consuming it?

    Another thing I found, something that even Terry made mention to me, was the lack of conversation about Jesus Christ. Often witnesses speak of Jehovah, however, there is really not much mention of our Lord Jesus Christ, except perhaps around the time of the Memorial. Browse through the pages of the publications and you will find some startling things. The focus tends to be on first the Organization and then Jehovah. There is not much focus on Jesus. That’s kind of funny considering that he said we were to be witnesses of Him, we are to be called Christians for a reason. It is to Him that our knee should bow, He is our King.

    During one of the last meetings I attended, Suzanne made a comment at a meeting about Jesus, that was so beautiful it brought tears to my eyes. It had hit me, that more often then not, our conversations at the meetings do not center around Him.

    My bible reading, coupled with that which I was seeing and hearing in the Kingdom Hall, was disturbing. It was a very difficult decision to make, since all that I have known is within the confines of the Organization, including my family.

    But the worst of it is this, during that time, that I simply stopped going to meetings and I kept my mouth shut, I was ashamed of myself.

    Ashamed that I was more concerned about what men thought of me, rather then my Creator.

    More concerned about losing my friends and family, rather then the blessings of God.

    I don’t want to lose you as my brother, but I know that you have to do what you believe is right.

    I hope that you can understand that I too have to do, what I believe is right.

    These are yet a few more reasons why, Mark I no longer wish to be considered one of Jehovah’s Witnesses.

    If you have still have questions, I will answer.

    This is my email address:

    [email protected]

    Much Christian Love

    Since I never heard from him, and the phone calls and drop ins stopped, I figured I made my point and it was announced.

    Meagan

  • AuldSoul
    AuldSoul
    If we are told constantly that being loyal to the Organization equals being loyal to God, then we slowly acclimate our minds to believing that what comes from the Organization is coming from God. If we keep taking that for granted, then we stop reading the publications with a view to making sure that it is indeed the proper food at the proper time and we just accept whatever they give us. When a person continues to do that, they don’t know whether or not they are receiving spiritually healthy food and can unknowingly become spiritually malnourished. Think how often the witnesses are taught that the faithful and discreet slave are providing the proper food at the proper time, how thankful they should be. How often do witnesses carefully examine what they are being fed, before consuming it?

    (((BlackSwan)))

    This paragraph sums up what I despise most about this organization. It is the characterizing factor of the entire organization, far more so than love. And this will never change. Since this won't change, the organization will continue to abuse any who trust its authority because power corrupts.

    This was beautifully done, although I'm sure it wrenched your gut to write it. It is hard to think of our loved ones feeding at a trough of poisoned slop while praising it as food from God. You took a stand, and it seems like for reasons similar to mine. A large, well-known family and you couldn't be left alone with your fade. I would have rather faded, but I couldn't due to family involvements. I had to get relief though, some finality.

    You did the right thing for yourself. Once the organization comes down, your family can't be loyal to it anymore. You'll have your family and your "brother" back. He is just doing what he feel he must to be pleasing to his God, the Governing Body.

    Respectfully,
    AuldSoul

  • luna2
    luna2

    I'll bet he just didn't know what to say to such a beautiful, kind, heartfelt letter. It's still too bad that he didn't have the courtesy to respond in some way.

    JW's are so very small and afraid sometimes, aren't they? I know I was when I thought myself one of them. The comment about your family burning your dreaded "apostate" letters demonstrates this. So frightened that they will be contaminated, so terrified that Jah will think they are disloyal and find them unworthy. It's sad, isn't it?

  • Forscher
    Forscher

    [Quote]Another thing I found, something that even Terry made mention to me, was the lack of conversation about Jesus Christ. Often witnesses speak of Jehovah, however, there is really not much mention of our Lord Jesus Christ, except perhaps around the time of the Memorial. Browse through the pages of the publications and you will find some startling things. The focus tends to be on first the Organization and then Jehovah. There is not much focus on Jesus. That’s kind of funny considering that he said we were to be witnesses of Him, we are to be called Christians for a reason. It is to Him that our knee should bow, He is our King.[/Qoute]

    That paragraph articulates the crux of the matter for me. The organization is first with great emphasis on the FDS, meaning the Governing body. Jehovah comes second, but only where he can be used to validate the FDS's authority. Jesus is a very distant third, and only because he can be appealed to as making them "Christian". That had alot to do with me fading.

    Forscher

  • Forscher
    Forscher

    Lets see if I can get that the way I intended?







  • Forscher
    Forscher

    One more try.

    Another thing I found, something that even Terry made mention to me, was the lack of conversation about Jesus Christ. Often witnesses speak of Jehovah, however, there is really not much mention of our Lord Jesus Christ, except perhaps around the time of the Memorial. Browse through the pages of the publications and you will find some startling things. The focus tends to be on first the Organization and then Jehovah. There is not much focus on Jesus. That’s kind of funny considering that he said we were to be witnesses of Him, we are to be called Christians for a reason. It is to Him that our knee should bow, He is our King.



    That paragraph articulates the crux of the matter for me. The organization is first with great emphasis on the FDS, meaning the Governing body. Jehovah comes second, but only where he can be used to validate the FDS's authority. Jesus is a very distant third, and only because he can be appealed to as making them "Christian". That had alot to do with me fading.

    Forscher

  • Forscher
    Forscher

    YES!

  • Sheepish
    Sheepish

    Black Swan,

    What a loving, thoughtful, heartfelt letter. God bless you for taking the time to share what you found with this elder. How else are they going to hear this stuff? It has to be planting seeds. The phrase "do unto others" pops into my mind.It has the added benefit of making sure of all things in your own mind. It will help with the healing process.

    Your point about Jesus is well taken. Scripture says, It is" the name above every other name"...That alone should give reason to use it more than "Jehovah." Also, "Whoever confesses me before men, him will I confess also before my Father in heaven.... everyone who has forsaken houses, or brethren, or sisters, or father, for my name's sake, shall receive a hundredfold, and shall inherit everlasting life". Rock on Black Swan!

  • IronClaw
    IronClaw

    BlackSwan, My mother once wrote a letter to my neice in Japan. She had me type it and send it via e-mail since she is 80 yrs old and doesn't have internet. It was only one paragraph long, but made mention 3 times about "Jehovah's loving Organization". How they get brainwashed into this Org is truly amazing. Lots of luck to you.

  • darth frosty
    darth frosty

    You know it is really a shame that despite your best efforts to just explain YOUR personnal reasons and feelings for leaving the organization, Most JW's just dont want to listen. The only thing that they listen for is whether or not you believe in and trust the society. Once they hear that you have doubts, the rest dosen't matter. I believe that the reason for this is that more-n-likely the reasons you have for leaving, will mirror the doubts that have been swelling up inside of them.

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