First I went to the blood center and gave blood. I got the "I Gave" sticker. I also wore my cross necklace and walked in the doors speaking to everyone like I never left. I sure did get some weird and rude looks. I was asked by an elder to sit down in the back room instead of walk about in the common areas where everyone else was. I said, "I'll sit down when everyone else sits down when it starts, thank you." When they passed the bread and wine I crossed myself like I was Catholic and partook. I thought the elders would sh** a brick! I also wrote checks that I put in the contribution box and in the date section I wrote 1914, 1925, 1975, then in the Pay To The Order Of field I wrote, Jehovah's Witnesses, hide pedophiles, I was sexually molested you did nothing. My father told me to kill myself. You make 1 billion dollars per year. You will get none of my money and I signed it. Instead of printing them off the site I decided to use my real bank checks.
Ok here's the Readers Digest version of my story. I have a HUGE thank you to everyone who posts on this board. In 2002 I was disfellowshipped and I thought I'd come back but just never could get the motivation to do so. I believed Jehovah would just kill me but I just couldn't go back to it. So I was married to my JW husband and we had two little kids. Finally after too much pressure to go to the meetings and come back I decided to go one last time. On Superbowl Sunday 2005 just over a year ago I got on my knees on Sunday morning and said..
"Jehovah this is your one chance. I'm going to the Kingdom Hall today and I want an answer before I leave. You have to show me one of three things. 1. This is the "Truth" and you want me to come back. 2. This is the "Truth" and you don't want me to come back. or 3. This isn't the "Truth" then show me where to go. Now I'm going to get up and put my dress on and go. God you have two hours and I want a sign." The CO was in town and I thought for sure if there was anything to feel it would be that day. So I went. I didn't feel anything for two hours and then the meeting was over. Afterward a sister comes up to introduce herself because she didn't know who I was. Another sister runs up to her and says "She's disfellowshipped." Right in front of me! The other lady ran like she saw a ghost. I looked up at the KH ceiling and Said "Thank You. that was my sign." This Isn't the truth You don't want me here. Then I got in the car and said "now show me where to go." Long story short I did a lot of research and a lot of that research came from this site. I must have read the new testement three times in three different bibles in a one month span. I searched hard and prayed harder and I became a real christian with no denomination and no silly rules. Just love god love others and you're ok. I am now doing as much as I can to help others get out of the cult and I am also writing a book which I hope to release next year. Of the Witness life growing up I can say I was severely abused and I'm one of those Dr. Phil / Oprah stories. Sexually abused and because of the two witness rule the pedophile was hidden. Physically beaten by my father and drug by my hair all in the name of God. He was an elder. Crazy stuff but I won't bombard this post with all that. I just wanted to say hello and tell everyone here that you have been so helpful in your ministry to tell the world the TRUTH about the CULT of Jehovah's Witnesses. I have been able to share the information on here with so many people and it has helped them ease guilt, shame and dispair. I owe so much to everyone who takes the time to post stories, comments, personal experiences and research on here. It is not in vain. Please keep up your ministry.
Renee Clevenger, Tallahassee, FL