Hi everyone,
As many of you know I will be meeting with the elders from my hall today. I had decided to come clean and just tell them that I don't believe in this anymore. However tonight I talked to one of my friends who is still a witness and I realized that there are a lot of people who would be very hurt if I got DFed, so I have made the choice to go into that meeting today and lie my ass off. You see I thought about this a lot and I can't stand the thought of I hurting people that really care about me. I can avoid causing them pain by using some good old theocratic warfare. All I have to do is get through this meeting and then go back to fading.
I wanted to take a moment to thank all of you, you have no idea how much you have helped me. Hugs and kisses to those of you that have taken the time to pm me and to those of you that have phoned me up. Thank you to those that have offered to be bodyguards. I want to thank those of you that have given me your phone numbers in case I need to talk.
The sister that turned me in to the elders told me that those in the world are wicked, I say bullshit. You guys are are wonderful, you give me hope. Because of you I know that when I leave eveything will be okay, thank you.
Also I need to figure out what to wear, any suggestions?
Lola ** who is meeting with the elders and can't sleep**