Well, got a call from my sound assistant...to see how I am doing.
This brother suffers from frequent feelings of low self-worth and is actually one of the people my wife and I feel comfortable talking with. He asked where I have been...I said taking care of my wife. I told him that my wife has expressed the very real possibility she will hurt herself to me...and that I couldn't live with myself if I was giving a talk at the congo and that happened. He didn't know how bad this was.
Then he said that there are times when he just wants to give up and stop being a JW! But he always reasons his way out of it. When I started to miss the meetings, an elder told him "we can't use Mavie for the sound (as the overseer), you will have to do it." Well, this brother didn't like that...more responsibility. That is the reason he wants me back, he doesn't want to be an MS...at least not right now.
Then he began to pour his guts out to me about wanting to quit sometimes, and not wanting to fake a smile and conversation when feeling down at the meeting.
I was pretty open with him, as he was with me. We will see how this develops.