So Saturday night I speak to this Judy and I make it known to her that I know she is a Witness. Hehehehe...she tells me she is inactive! And she goes telling me about reasons why, and she tells me that she knows that they are only excuses. So I tell her I went to the Assembly and she is SHOCKED...she says no one told her. I tell you about this woman because EVER SINCE I'VE WORKED AT THIS WALMART, I'VE BEEN EATING LUNCH WITH HER AND ANOTHER LADY NAMED MICKIE. They are both older women, and they are the same thing everyday.........what I mean is that you always know where they are gonna sit and everything................everyday they sit in the same chairs, at the same time and everything......maybe thats why I started sitting with them, I don't know.....cause I kinda like routine myself. But anyhow, for some odd reason I've been sitting with these women and talking to them practically everyday. Of course, I always talked more to Mickie than Judy, but Judy always sits there with Mickie. So all this time, I've been sitting there with a Witness and didn't even know it! hehehe.....So, I have this plan! hehehee...... I'm gonna try my best to encourage her to boost her back to meetings! I know you are laughing and thinking YEAH RIGHT! YOU ARE JUST A STUDY! WHAT CAN YOU SAY OR DO TO GET AN INACTIVE WITNESS BACK ON TRACK? heheheehhhehehe....So I've been thinking about this all night! I don't want to be obnoxious or forceful about what I say or do, so I'm gonna test her....I'm gonna put her through a series of tests.....to test her heart condition...........to see if she's become an apostate or whether her heart is still strong for Jehovah. So everytime I question her or do something, I'm gonna tell you about it and how it goes....so together, we can see if this inactive witness just needs some encouragement! This is what I suspect: She's stopped getting visits from elders.....she doesn't have encouragement.........she is sick alot.........she is tired alot..........she has troubled daughters..........she knows the ins and outs of being disfellowshipped.She told me about her daughter and how her daughter never became baptized cause her daughters friend told her that if she got baptized then she could be disfellowshipped...so this alone, has got me thinking......if she's inactive she's being careful not to be disfellowshipped. She now knows that I know, and now I find that she is watching what she does around me....hehehe... Its funny cause the other night she said something about someone, and then she turned around and said 'that wasn't nice was it'....hehehee..cause she remembered I was there! heheehe...You know, Sheila, from the Baptist church, used to always be that way around me too! hehehe.....don't know why! Maybe cause they know I pay attention to everything...hehehe. This witness told me about how she's gone through a divorce, a move, and other problems as well. So anyhow, I'M GONNA TRY HARD TO ENCOURAGE HER AND HELP HER BACK TO MEETINGS! hehehee...This is what I plan: I'm gonna tell her about the District convention coming up, and keep reminding her about it. I already told her once, but I'm gonna keep bringing it up!
I'm gonna start telling her little things to make her miss it................cause she already told me SHE MISSES IT! And I believe her!
You see, I've sat with this woman for so long now, without either of us knowing the other, and without knowing either of us were in the Truth, so now we've come to a point where we know each other to a certain degree, and can tell how each are........like I can tell if she is tired, if she is upset, if she is sick, if she is lying..........hehehe....I've learned her reactions already! hehehe...so I can tell if she is giving me a story! She just became a grandmother recently too....not sure if it was her first though, but her daughter just had a baby just like weeks ago! Because she knows I'm studying, our conversations are directed towards the truth now..................hehehee.....its kinda weird! The other night I was about 10 minutes late going back from my break because she wanted to talk to me. I can feel that she has needs..........she needs the Truth! And she is excited about it! She needs to Talk about it! Even this morning, before I left, I seen her walking down the hall, and she made a point to wave at me.....its kinda funny! Anyhow, I'M DETERMINED! This woman has just got to get back on track! She needs major encouragement! So what I'm gonna do is share little things with her...like from the wt or awake or meetings....or from my research..........I'm gonna start sharing things with her to make her miss it even more! And I'm gonna make it known how much the Truth helps me! SHE NEEDS MAJOR ENCOURAGEMENT! So since no one else is helping her, I'm gonna try!(I assume no one is helping her cause she didn't even know the Assembly was this past weekend)(And I believe she wasn't lying because of her reaction)
I got an idea.....................I'm gonna print out my notes from the Assembly and give them to her! hehehee...that will be the greatest! Anyhow, I didn't get to sit with her last night cause I took my lunch late...but next time I sit with her I'll let you know what is said and done...hehehe. This is my new project! Helping to save her life!
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... Maybe I will talk to Judy tonight! hehehe....I have to think of how to approach her with stuff.......I think also I will study up on inactive stuff on the wt library. Cause I want to help her! :)
My analysis: this "project" that our blogger is winding herself up to start is simply a distraction from her own discomfort and dismay with with the JW total commitment requirements, as evident from her entry only 4 days earlier:
I sat up all night last night. I was doing some research with the wt library, preparing for my study this morning, and just being bored. Now I'm rather tired!
Sorry I didn't have a question monday...I will for sure try to have one this coming monday! I just haven't been well at all! And there have been problems at home and stuff too....just seems like things compound daily for me.
I think the world is ending............and I feel the urgency of getting right with God. Mumps are back.....volcanoes erupting in Chile....hurricanes...GOSH! There are so many things I could name..................it breaks my heart, but I truly see that we are INDEED living in the time of the end!
I kind of feel though, that if I were to die today, I don't know what would become of me......I'm no longer a Baptist.....and I'm not yet a Witness..........I'm a nothing!
As I sat up last night, I was thinking about how I really need to get more serious about my study. I haven't read my bible in months, it seems...I know that that is one of the keys that always helped me.....so I need to get back to reading! I'm trying to pray, and have prayed but I'm still having troubles.
Its just hard studying with someone new now.....I need to get back on the school, and work towards baptism......but.....................today Moleta mentioned to me that I'll be studying the Worship God book next....................so I think...why try to get back on the school now? It'll be next year now before I'm baptized..... A new book will take forever! I hate all of this!
I studied the Requirement brochure...studied about 5 chapters of the knowledge book, almost through with the Bible Teach, and now Another book! So they want to play hard ball, I'm gonna give them hard ball......I'm gonna attend every meeting, I'm gonna comment, I'm gonna get on the school and I'm gonna force them to get me Baptized! hehehee. :P The world is ending and I'm dying here...................! Can't they see, I'm reaching for a life raft? I don't want to die, I want to belong somewhere! This stresses me out TOTALLY! I don't want to drag my feet for 3 years before I'm Baptized! I can't wait that long.................................heck, I can't wait 2 years.......I'm dying here......there's not alot of time left! If I'm not Baptized before 2 years is up, I'm gonna QUIT! hehehe....ok, just joking.........but Gosh, MAN, I'm trying sooooo hard and no one even notices! No one even cares! I just want to belong somewhere........................I'm tired of being a nobody!
I gave up my friends, I gave up my life, I gave up everything for this religion.........it just gets me down cause I want it TODAY! I haven't been drinking anymore, and I haven't been smoking anymore, and I've been attending meetings and I've been studying, and I've even taken on more study within my space...............Gosh, I'm trying so hard!
Did I tell you I'm not well? Hehehe...yeah, I'm not well............I'm stressing so bad lately! Ok, sorry...I just needed to vent ......................sorry it had to happen today! I feel much better now...hehehe.... :) I wish I were already a Witness though.................... It breaks my heart that I've messed up like I have and have gotten off track! Believe it or not, I'm back on track now......I am, and I am so confident that I am, that I'm gonna tell you that I'm 110% on track now.....I think my space helped me! The study within my space and stuff, pushed me to study again and helped me to get back into God's word. I just got to do that sometimes...push myself and encourage myself cause sometimes I just don't get enough push or encouragement from others...so I give myself some direction or something to work towards...and it helps me! Ok I'm rambling...guess its my lack of sleep! Anyhow, I need to go rest.....................I'll be back tomorrow! Happy Reading! hehehe...one more thing..............I Love Everyone! :)
Does anyone here in JWD-land feel motivated to offer this poor BS some loving kindness and words of wisdom? Seriously, I think some discreet encouragement (wink-wink, nudge-nudge) would definitely be in order! A charitable project?? http://spaces.msn.com/charlenehall/