My Secret to a Joy-Filled Life

by jgnat 25 Replies latest jw friends

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    Here is a question I received from an anonymous poster. Getting this PM made my day. He asks a universal question, so I decided to answer the best I can in public.

    "I don't need to read another book or listen to another CD to know what life is all about. I get more from talking over the fence with my neighbors, taking a favorite dog for a walk, or telling my granddaughter that she is beautiful and smart.
    I'm blushing as a newborn flower-child now. Why worry? Plant tulips instead. Gardening is far more productive."


    Question: I am a recently exited JW. I cannot live without hope, but what can I believe; who can I ever trust again? I'm hurting bad, but somehow I need to learn to live all over again. Reading your above comment I consider to be a gift, and I hope I will be able to learn to think like you do. What is your secret?

    Answer 1: I’ve noticed some of the happiest people on earth are those who came closest to death. That cold breath chills. Since we know death is inevitable, we have a choice. Give in to it, or fight it. Happy people are fighters.

    My secret? I’ve lived several lifetimes of pain already. I lost my mother to mental illness. My first husband beat me in to a submissive shell of my former self. I lost my son to mental illness. I’ve moaned great rifts of pain from the depths of my soul. Where could I go from there except up?

    Survivors don’t have much time to mourn their losses, life beckons. Allow your grief for a while, but then forgive yourself, leave the idiots, and move on. The best revenge is a life well-lived.

    Answer 2: Ex-JW’s I swear are some of the bravest people on earth. First of all, they risk losing all by admitting what a fool they’ve been. Second, they are forced in to critical self-reflection that most people manage to avoid. Most people bob through life like a cork on the ocean, blaming fate and their mother-in-law for their circumstances.

    My secret? Regular critical self-evaluation. I’ve learned to question my own foundations over and over again. And to my joy, I found that God is not offended. One of the books that forced me in to clear thinking, as funny as it seems, is “On Writing Well” by Zinsser. If you have the discipline to follow it’s principles, I guarantee you will become a bolder writer and thinker.

    Another great book along the same lines is “ Flow: The Psychology of Optimal Experience” by Mihaly Csikszentmihalyi

    Answer 3: Find people who have the “secret” and ask them how they did it. I had some great role models in my grandfather and my stepmom. They tackled life, right to the end .

  • Crumpet
    Crumpet

    Wow - what a lovely thought provoking post. And it was good to hear someone acknowledge how brave EX JWs can be - especially since it means admitting we were fools - were duped by the Emperor's New Clothes. Personally for me that has been the hardest thing. Everyone else knew I was fooled apart from me and I find it excruciatingly embarassing and it has knocked my confidence majorly - but its all still pretty new - I won;t let it knock me back forever.

    Thanks for posting that.

  • bebu
    bebu

    Thank you for such a wonderful post, jgnat. And I am very interested in the first book you mentioned.

    Sometimes the pains of life are things that really sting us to be alive at last. I would not ask the secrets of being happy from a person who has never suffered. It is the ones who have suffered and overcome who know best. (Perhaps that's part of the idea of "being made perfect" thru suffering...?)

    And you, jgnat, take right after your grandfather and stepmom. They would be proud.

    bebu

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    You guys....here I sit at my desk, tears streaming down my face....

  • lilybird
    lilybird

    Great post jgnut !!!! Its true what you say about people who have faced death are the most appreciative of life. I think as JWS they are taught to fear God so much they are afraid to think for themselves...I believe a God who created all .. wants people to be free thinking.. Its in our nature to want to explore and learn .

    One question I asked but never got an answer to when I was a teen JW.. was if God is all knowing and wise.. why couldn't he see the how Adam would sin and see how wicked the world would become.. Why would he really allow it just to justify himself as almighty... My study conductor said at that time.." He chooses to see what he wants to see and then chooses not to look into the future if he doesn't want to know what will happen.. Never made sense to me..Anyways.. I enjoyed reading your comments...

  • lovelylil
    lovelylil

    jgnut,

    wonderful post, thanks!

  • Fleur
    Fleur

    Great post...thanks gnat!!!

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    And...one day....you will all learn to spell my name.....

    Except for gumby. The gumbmeister can call me fruity.

  • bythesea
    bythesea

    jgnat...GREAT post...great encouragement for those of us who are still struggling with the whole exit thing!! Thanks!!!!!

    bythesea

  • jgnat
    jgnat

    See? Lots of us have to start over.

    When my daughter discovered she was pregnant at twenty, she received all kinds of useless advice from her in-laws. They cried and moaned and told her that her life was over. I reassured her, "Oh, no. Your life is not over, it's just a twenty year sentence." Then I laughed hilariously. Why live with all sorts of regrets? My children taught me to be strong. I wouldn't be who I am today without them.

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