Hello there Phillipe,
I just want to say how very much I admire your courage, strength and conviction in the way that you went about dealing with your cognitive dissonance. Your approach was utterly dignified, and you gave the GB and the elders every opportunity to answer your concerns and questions, but in their typical true style they refuse to be challenged on their unfounded doctrines, and silence your challenge by forcing you out of the org. It's just a great thing that you realised your own personal intelligence and worth and weren't afraid to face your fears. I can totally understand where you're coming from on what it's like to have panic attacks in relation to the fear you have regarding your indoctrinated upbrining. It's a terrible thing to have to go through, and extremely difficult to overcome. That just makes the fact that you've been able to stand up and walk away all the more impressive in my opinion :) Now that you've intelligently worked through your feelings on false JW doctrinal teachings, you will no longer have to fear anything, or suffere panic attacks, because you've been through the worst of it, and nothing the org does can ever hurt you again any more than what they've already done to you. So as hard as it is still at times, it's all up from here :)
I just wanted to say too that the no blood transfusion rule was one of the big things that got to me that caused me to have major doubt too. It didn't seem logical to me that the principle of the sanctity of life would be sacrificed through the strict enforcement of an antiquated law. It just didnt gel with me at all. I'd really like to see the paper that you published on the web with respects to the "blood issue". Feel free to pm me with a link, or if you need to send it via email, just pm me and I"ll shoot you over my details :)
Well, it was great to read your bio, thanks for sharing it with us. All the best with your future, especially re your plans to move to China, it sounds absolutely fabulous. You should be immensely proud of yourself, never forget your amazing accomplishments, especially in the hard times.
Take care, much luv, sis frog x