As an atheist, I feel like I am coming to terms with my mortality. One day I will die, just like the beasts of the field.
It has lead me to think about the whole concept of religion, a personal god, one who approves or disapproves of our individual actions.
Is`nt it all really just an egotistical excersise? Is`nt it the case that people just cant handle the fact that this is all there is?
Dont get me wrong, I have issues with the fact that I cant get my head around not being created. My body attests to this being the case. Some things in nature do as well. Nevertheless, world conditions and natural disasters negate the belief in a loving, personal, creator. Im confused about that.
When I was in the org I heard an experience at the district assembly. It was about a sister who needed a certain amount of money to pay a bill - for example £64.73. That week, just as she was at the point of eating the dust from the ground a household bill rebate came through the door. It was for £64.73!! Que the audience, lots of ooohhh's and aaahhhh's.
So here, god gave this sister enough money to run her car or whatever but he deprives an entire continent of decent food, bakes them (and their crops) to death in the sun and then violently destroys them all with a tsunami. I`m sorry but it just does`nt stand up to basic logic.
Please do not misunderstand me, I never want to destroy faith. If you`ve got it then good for you, really. You may perhaps, be able to explain such things more succinctly than me.
Is it really not just the case that we cant accept our own mortality?
Shaping our lives around a god who cares about some, but not for others just does`nt make sense to me.