by airwlk149 18 Replies latest jw experiences
airwlk149,
I was DFed when I was 19. I worked so hard to get reinstated and finally gave up. I understand what you're going through. The whole shunning situation was so extremely painful and conditional. I just knew that God loved me even though I had sinned. It was eventually the shunning that made me question God was with this organization. I hope you do well in your journey, dear. You have many friends here on this board that understand and will love you. Email me if you'd like to.
Andi
Hello Air,
No one should have to go through what you have. As far as your boyfriend having family on his committee meeting that is a huge NO NO!
If there we not enough elders to be able to sit on the committee then they were suppose to have someone from another cong. fill in.
I would not give up your new friends. They may be the only ones that you will ever know. True friends are too hard to come by as you have already been shown. True friends love you for who and what you are, not what they think you should be.
Do you live on your own?
No religion or other person is worth taking your own life. You cannot live your life in order to please someone else. No love or acceptance should be based on conditions such as religion.
When a person has feelings such as suicide it will often times reappear when under pressure. Please find someone in a professional field to talk to. Your life is much to valuable to take. There is always another road to take, it may not be one that will make everyone around you happy but, we are talking about survival. You do what you must in order to survive.
many (((hugs)))! Keep coming back for support!!!
i just want to say thank-you to all of you who responded to my post. it warmed my heart to see how so many people responded with the love that you all showed. i see now that there are so many people who are like me and have been through what i have been through, and it makes me see that i am not alone in feeling what i feel. it's the worst feeling to feel, but i got through it and i know that i can make it. i would love to talk to all of you and hear what you have to say. email me anytime and i will try and email all of you. thank-you again so much!
thanks for reading! :)
Hi Air,
I just wanted to welcome you here. It really helps knowing that your not alone. Many have been in the same boat and have found that shunning is not a loving or christian practice.
Looking forward to reading your posts
Jurs
Greetings dear young person,
I must have been disfellowship six times. I lost count.
The reasons were mostly because I was unhappy and
outspoken about it.
Finally, I disfellowshipped the WatchTower. I stood
up before them all and read my note that I was longer
a Jehovah's Witness, and I they could take that to the
bank.
So, get away as soon as you can from insidious killer.
Try going to college a couple of years to start, in
pretense of getting a job skill at their level of
allowance. Then thereafter, you can support yourself
and finish college. Loans and grants are very easy to
get. Work it out. It can happen.
Because of your life in religious bondage, you are probably
socially immature at this time in dealing with the real world,
and have trouble with self-decision making. However, try to
make a list to help you get focused with small goals. College
will help you get your mind right--as it did me--and teach
you many things to assist you as a Christian, such as how to
think critically, better awareness, delight in the world about
you.
I found that
if you are an alcoholic, get rid of the alcohol.
if you are a drug addict, get rid of the drugs.
if you are religiously persecuted, get rid of the religion.
In other words, to get well, GET RID OF THE SOURCE of the
probably, or YOU WON'T GET WELL. The source can devestate
or kill.
Oh, yes, I know you need friends but forget the boy friends.
Your WT caused lonelyness could take away many years of a
happy life if you get sad and reckless. Plan correctly now.
Get free for few years, get focused, get free in Christ,
discover the body of Christ, discover true Christianity,
let the Holy Spirit guide you. Get a University education.
Get busy.
Love you,
Free In Christ Jesus our Lord & Savior, as the Father would have it.
Airwalk,
I'm really glad you found this place. I hope we can give you some emotional support that you so desperately need. You sound like you have a good head on your shoulders, although you've been emotionally screwed over and have scars. I think you are beginning to see the hypocrisy of the JWs. Friends who treat you like you were dead are not real friends, you know that. I like the idea of you going away to college. Find out about student loans and grants. You've been through a lot but you still have a difficult road ahead; that road be easier to travel once you have true friends to share the journey with.
Best Wishes,
Ray Skyhorse
HEY AIR,
LISTEN. IF YOU ARE NOT GOING TO BE ADVERSLY AFFECTED FINANCIALLY, LEAVE FOR YOUR OWN GOOD. YOU WILL BE MANIPULATED TIME AND AGAIN. I HOPE YOU ARE OK, IT'S SO TOUGH BEING IN THAT SITUATION. I KNOW THAT SOMETIMES, IF YOU ARE DEPENDANT ON JW PARENTS, SOMETIMES THE BEST COURSE IS PRUDENCE, BUT STAYING CAN BE WORSE ON YOU IF YOU HATE YOURSELF-YOU DON'T HAVE TO LISTEN TO ME.....I'M JUST A FOOL HOPING YOU FEEL BETTER.
ASHITAKA
Hi Air and welcome!
As a young person like yourself, I thought I should say something too. I only have one thing really to say. You are definitly not alone in this one. My dad was very demanding of me in that religion (cult), much like your mother is. I think it would be better for me to email you my experience and thoughts, rather than post it here. Tomorrow (Friday) when I have time I will do that. Hang in there, we are all here for you.
I feel so sad for you...you have given so much of your life to Jehovah and then you gave up when under test.
Jehovah does not forget what you did for his name. But girl, you failed a test that all of Jehovah's Witnesses have to go thru. WE DO NOT SERVE AND WORSHIP PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY IMPERFECT PEOPLE!
You were tested like Job but you forgot to turn to Jehovah in pray to help you during the hardest test we all go thru. He would have guided you on what to do... then you would know for sure that He is real.
Are you with your new church people praising Jehovah and teaching people about the only hope of the Kingdom? You know you
are not...but you know deep down that is what we are to do.
Jehovah has a perfect track record, EVERYTHING he says is going to happen...
Jesus said these apostates would come. They have all decided to jump off the bridge and you have followed. Just like Judas Escariot.
If I would have stayed in the Kingdom Hall just because of the people, imperfect people just like me, believe me I would have left a long time ago. I love Jehovah and if he allows certain things to continue for a time, then that is His decision.
Satan is the one testing all of Jehovah's people...he wants company.
And all those aposates that have failed their test of faith in Jehovah want company too. And they cry about it all over the internet.
Why are they not coming to my door if they are so loving and they know what is going to happen in the future?
I cannot begin to tell you all the stuff I have personally gone thru over the years but I can tell you, I have seen ALOT. And each time I have had to make personal adjustments and sometimes even changed congregations where there were even apostates within, girl we are close to the end and you HAVE TO have a close relationship with Jehovah to get thru this. It is the only way...Please find a Hall that you feel comfortable and loved in...I know it is there for you... for sure...I trust in Jehovah! NOT imperfect MAN!
