Thats all I can do. After suffering a nervous breakdown 5 years ago, its all I can do.
You and me both. I had my breakdown 1 year after DA myself. Didn't do anything warranting it, but I wanted to stand up and take control of my life again. The whole experience has been an eye opener. It's been a long, hard journey and I still have my days, but it's MUCH better than it used to be.
Just as an adult's childhood affects him for life in different ways because those were his/her formative years, so w/cult religion. It moves in and insidiously takes over. It takes time to clear house and trust yourself and your decisions once more. Don't be too hard on yourself. Let the thoughts ebb and flow and then reassure yourself that you are just fine. You can be at peace w/God and yourself w/o someone else telling you how to do it.
cant do the JW thing anymore. I cant carry the JW burden anymore.
We didn't get involved in this religion to be driven "crazy" - who wants that? We thought it was right for us at the time; we didn't know that we were getting involved w/a controlling religion. We were conditioned to believe that this is the ONLY WAY to have a future life - by following their instructions. Now we know better and have left. Like your dogs, enjoy each day and the simple pleasures. Be gratefull for God's gift of life and be thankful for the earth's beauty. And be helpful where you can and show neighborly love. Very simple principles to follow. MAN adds all of the nitpikky stuff and sets the beam too high to jump over - that is NOT God's way.
Juni