I felt that God understood if I missed meetings or didn't go out in the field service very much, but the elders wouldn't.
Bottom line, I feared the elders more .....
That's pretty sad.
by JH 26 Replies latest jw friends
Hey JH - thats exactly the same way I felt. So yes I feared the elders more, and my study conductor. I was much more afraid of admitting things to her than I was to God. Also, feeling like that made me feel guilty as I believed I was disrespecting God by being more concerned of other people's reaction.
What Restrangled said...
Mostly I feared my Dad, but then he was an Elder so maybe that counts?
The only time that it actually entered my mind to fear the Elders was when I had to go to a Judicial Meeting. Then I was shaking in my boots.
I didn't fear God, I loved him and still do, but those elders were more like the pompus preachers they talked about so much.
I didn't even know who the elders were after they dropped the servant "arrangement". I sure didn't fear the god character. As a kid the Witnesses scared me with all their constant talk about goblins (deemins).
We lived in the country and at night it was dark as the inside of a cow. I hated it when the wind would blow. The outhouse was on the tree line and at night when the wind would blow and the trees moved like the arms on a ghost. We didn't have an inside bathroom until I was 9. The flashlight made shadows and made the trip worse at night.