Hi all I am new here and I have a question for you. I was an unbaptized publisher many years ago and attended meetings fairly regularly. I beleived in Jehovah and still do now. I beleive in Jesus, read the bible and pray sometimes. I went out on the service a few times and didnt enjoy it at all. I placed a few magazines, but the whole thing felt unnatural and forced. I was ok about doing informal "chat" type witnessing to people I knew though, that felt ok.
The main problem I had was that allthough I beleive in Jehovah/Jesus/The Bible, I dont beleive in being spoon fed a guide of what to do, how to act and what to think by a bunch of guys in suits. Ive always been a bit rebellious and strong minded. I found all the rules very stifling and claustrophobic. I stopped attending meetings and eventually just drifted away.
I have never been DF'd and I havent DA'd myself so what do you think my "status" is? in the eyes of the cong? in Jehovahs eyes?
Is it possible to serve Jehovah without following all of the WT "Rules"?Can you be a Jehovahs Witness if you live your life by the bibles standards, dont celebrate holidays etc and informally witness to friends, relatives and other people you feel comfortable talking to?Or is being a JW defined by regular meeting attendance, sitting pretty in a little row and putting your hand up with all the right answers, stomping the streets looking for people to take your magazines, and attending regular assemblies and conventions etc?
I would be interested to hear from anyone who feels that all the rules are very restrictive and that these were an obstacle to them serving Jehovah.I think that religion is a private thing and that its between you and your "God" I dont trust some group of elderly guys and Im not convinced by their impressive speeches and their smart suits, I think Jehvoah judges whats on the inside and a lot of these men seem to be all about whats on the outside. Does anyone know where Im coming from?