When you started to arrive on your decision about leaving

by The wanderer 11 Replies latest jw friends

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  Nowman

  I have said this more than a few times on the board. I left the org initially becaus of my parents, I couldn't take it anymore. That was 14 years ago this month. I had never planned to go back, but I did wonder if I should otherwise I would die. But, after my own research, and knowing more now about the cult I was raised in than when I was in it, I knew I made the correct decision later.

  My point is, I left because of my parents, I really did not know what I believed in. I just wanted to get away from them because of what they out me through.

  Nikki
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  fullofdoubtnow

  1.) When you arrived at your personal crossroad to leave was that based on
  emotions, intellect or some other factor?

  2.) Was your leaving the organization a slow steady breaking away or a quick
  affair?

  3.) What string of emotions did you carry before you made the final step?

  1. It was based mostly on the research I had done into the wts, but the doubt that caused me to investigate came about when a friend left, for a reason he had shared with me, and the gossip about how he was behaving before he left. I knew the rumours circulating weren't true, but the elders did nothing to stop them, and probably started them anyway. I started to wonder how people like that could really have Gods approval.

  2. It was fairly quick. I started missing meetings, then stopped going altogether and researching what I'd believed for so long, and disassociated all in the space of 3 or 4 months. Once I knew it wasn't the truth, there was no reason to stay.

  3. Anger at being lied to by the wts, and disappointment that I had spent so long pursuing a dream that was never going to come true.