Thankyou all so much for the clarification... I hope my questions don't sound silly.... I will tell you one thing, as sad as the situation is with the doctrine that is used for brainwashing in this organization, it is very interesting... It is amazing what people will do to explain thier existence and have peace of mind. As I have done alot of comparitive studies of religions, this is all very fascinating and sad. My own version of god does not involve any particular secular religion. I was raised Jewish and my stepbrother and sister were catholic. We had 2 opposing religions going on at one time while I was growing up. I rejected my jewish faith and was forced to do the Bat Mitzvah ceremony. I When the rabbi confirmed that I was an adult in the religion at 13 years old, I asked him if that meant I could make my own decisions. He said YES, so I informed him that I would NEVER attend services again..... As a young adult I ended up joing catholic campus ministry, and we sat in the woods with guitars and passed the bread and wine. I found out later that the priest had been ex-commuicated for doing pagan rituals. When I moved to a small town in New England and went to my first real Mass, it was then I learned all the things I was never told and promptly left. Then I thought I would be a pagan... that went on for several years.
Now my spirtuality is real mixture of beliefs, and based on the idea of Karma or what goes around comes around. I don't want to do anything that causes harm to anyone, and live life with integrity. So I understand some of the pain that people on this board have experienced, I was shunned by my jewish family, betrayed by the priest I thought was teaching me good lessions... now I am being told by my JW friend that her husband says I am a bad association because I am a lesbian. Go figure... all I know is that as human beings it is painful and complicated to find a faith that works... thanx for all of your support