First time poster here. I've been reading for a couple months and disasociated since 2001 or so.
Anyway, this is one of the biggest issues for me. My understanding from studying with the WT is that Armageddon's going to come to catch everyone by surprise. This has always bothered me. Rather than appreciate any love and loyalty shown he is lying in wait to catch as many as he can. Rather than read the heart and know who loves him, the WT teaches that god is going to use armageddon to both lock up satan and trap those who only are pretending to love him.
I have a hard time drawing close to someone who is still deciding if he's going to destroy me. I have a hard time dedicating my life to someone who would let me fall away due to being mislead as opposed to willfully wanting to fall away. According to the WT, I can serve god my whole life, with a heart filled with love and appreciation and still fall short because I was mislead. I can't tell you how much I hate the god that the WT introduced me to and how messed up my life STILL IS due to having wasted many yearst THINKING I WAS SERVING HIM.
Tom