Hi Crystal. Welcome to the board.
I encourage you to investigate the WT for truthfulness.
I didn't do that. My parents didn't do that.
When I finally did it I realised that "if jehova gonna kill me let him deal with that when it comes" was never going to happen. I realised that I, and my parents were victims. Me an unwilling victim, them, willing victims, of a fraud that has affected my life in many ways. I was 52 when I cane to that realisation. You are only 20.
Your parents are victims of a fraud. I hope that, in time, you will feel sorry for them and forgive them for their stupidity.
For now, I would encourage you to make a new life and new friends.
I am sure you will be much happier in your new life than stuck under the control of your parents and the WT. I would also suggest that you should consider getting professional help. We all have varying degrees of mental instablity from our upbringing in the WT. I have had much benefit from this forum, so stick around and feel free to vent when your family pisses you off.
Cheers
Chris