Hello Jwfreak,
Congratulations for reaching this point. As you have noticed, you are not alone in this journey. I hope you are aware that, since you cannot unlearn what you know, you cannot back up. Yet the journey ahead is going to have some unavoidable pain. After the rocky ride you will emerge with a real life, probably completely different from your past life.
I'm amused by where you are at this point, still an elder trying to find an escape door. You are not alone in this either. I remember it well. Some tragic events happen to come together that forced my exit even more quickly than I could have hoped. If you would like to go back a bit in time check out the thread below regarding former WT 'spirit appointed elders'.
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/69120/1.ashx
If that list were updated it might be interesting. I'm one of those who has moved on but try to keep in touch to offer help now and then. If you need support you have it here. Contact me, or anyone else here you relate to if you need help.
Jst2laws (Steve)