I don't feel purpose serves a purpose. You're here and that is wonderful. You are enough. I think purpose makes 'you' not be enough. It's a mind f&*^, really.
purpose
by coolhandluke 14 Replies latest jw friends
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daystar
Thanks, bro...
I wanted to add... that sometimes, during the middle of my little purpose crisis, I think that perhaps there is meaningful purpose, but that I'm just ignorant of it, that I'm just too blinded by... something...
I was blinded for so long. What's to say I'm not still?
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coolhandluke
i think lonely sums it up best with the mind fuc& comment. it all gets relegated to just breathing.
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tnangel73
I was just about to post something along similar lines. unique ir right. You aren't alone.
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serendipity
Hi CHL,
It seems to be human nature to need a purpose. It can be a challenge to define what your purpose is for this point in your life.
One of the most unsettling times in my life was right after I graduated from college and got my first professional level job. Prior to that, for several years, my purpose was getting into college, graduating and then getting a job in my chosen field. Once that was achieved, I felt like I was just drifting. Since I was still a JW, I knew that my purpose should include fulltime ministry, but I didn't want to do that so I felt guilty.
An unplanned pregnancy forced me to defining a purpose- being a good parent. Eighteen years later, that phase of my life is coming to a close (or really undergoing redefinition.) So I've decided to define "purpose" more broadly at this point: To positively impact others in small ways and large, to love those closest to me, to be a productive member of society and to enjoy the journey.
There's a theory something along the lines of the "fluttering of a butterfly's wings causes a hurricane." (Butterfly effect, Chaos theory). Events are interdependent, people are interconnected, and effects can span generations (think of the Adam & Eve story).
I now realize that I won't see the impact of my actions, affirming them (and me). But I have to believe there will be an impact.