Hello, I am new to the forum and just joined in the last two days. I have read your ? and many other questions asked in the the forum. I have been out for 6 years as I was DF'd as my ex divorced me for no grounds and I moved on with my life as I had many questions and problems with man made teachings and opinions, because I went back to the basics of reading the Bible and not literture of men (Matt 15:6,7). I see your situation and many others as very simple. Most of the answers or questions posed in these forums are opinions and not too many times do I see people looking to the only source of truth to answer them. You sound as if you may have some fear which I see many of the people in here do, the Bible states at Prov 29:25 this 25 Trembling at men is what lays a snare, but he that is trusting in Jehovah will be protected. or as another translation puts it 25 Fearing people is a dangerous trap,
but trusting the L ord means safety.
I see so many people afraid of being exposed or being kicked out of the org, and never wondering what the Bible says on matters or worry about Jah and Christ feelings on it, but just taking the org viewpoint or thoughts on it WITHOUT DOING THE SEARCHING FOR THEMSELVES. Ask yourself this ?, if I am afraid to offend someone, afraid to be kicked out for social or truly religious reasons, if I express this much fear in front of men, WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WHEN CONFRONTED WITH ABSOLUTE PERSECUTION? Remember Jesus words at Luke 16:10. We are fooling ourselves if we think we can stand in the face of death from men and yet be so worried about men or womens thoughts of us in a peaceful setting.
However you also need to take the Bibles veiwpoint of not harming or encroaching on another persons conscience, Paul put it best in Cor when he said he wouldn't do anything if it offended his brother even if he had the right to do so (is it really that important), pray for HS and wisdom, do as the scriptures tell you, keep seeking, keep searching for wisdom, keep digging for it, keep asking. You personally must do this, we personally have an obligation and responsibility to do so, don't rely on someone else to do it, Jah is the Creator of the mind and heart, he obviously was able to contact the men who wrote the Bible, he can obviously get in contact with your mind and heart if you ask Him to do so. Let His HS lead you in the way that is right.
There is too much worrying over simple and silly non-sense that has nothing to do whether it brings Glory to God the Father through our Lord Jesus Christ, too much non-sense that has nothing to do with faith, love and the fruitages of the HS, nothing to do with salvation and trust in Jah and His provisions, nothing to do with whether we are trying to imitate our Lord and King. Time to get back to the basics of what Christ taught, time to worry about our measure of faith not works in front of men. Worry about what Paul spoke of at Romans 2:28,29 where he stated 28 For he is not a Jew who is one on the outside, nor is circumcision that which is on the outside upon the flesh. 29 But he is a Jew who is one on the inside, and [his] circumcision is that of the heart by spirit, and not by a written code.The praise of that one comes, not from men, but from God. or as another translation puts it 28 For you are not a true Jew just because you were born of Jewish parents or because you have gone through the ceremony of circumcision. 29 No, a true Jew is one whose heart is right with God. And true circumcision is not merely obeying the letter of the law; rather, it is a change of heart produced by God’s Spirit. And a person with a changed heart seeks praise [ d ] from God, not from people.
Rely on God's Word for your guidance and the promised HS, this is the only true source of direction, time for all of us to examine who and what we REALLY are. I hope this helps you, sincerely your brother in Christ.