Ive been "in the truth" ever since I was 6 years old when my mother was baptised in the late 70`s. So I sort of got dragged along to the meetings and therin started the indoctrination that was to prove to be my undoing. Ive been reading this page for a while now and read some very slick posts from dissillusioned ex members. All through my childhood I was told to be a good child, do as your told, don`t complain when your faults are brought to your attention, privatley and publicly. Don`t get to upset when other kids in the congregation seem to get on, not by being more devout but having parents who are in the clique, the inner sanctum of families who are the goodies..(why does it seem that the favoured ones always seem to do well?) If you had an unfashionable family or where maybe a little less intellectual than the others, just try a little harder!! its obvious that its your fault, so go away and read up on being more forgiving, or even better do more! do more in the service, do more prayer, put yourself forward just in the off chance you may get noticed. Anyway, I plodded through life, got married, had kids, became a MS, and then began to see the light...this organisation is not being run to uphold the spirituallity of its flock, its being run for men by men! Sure they stand up on the platform and pontificate about being their to help and support, but really all the BOE want us to do is sit there, smile, and goo oooh and ahhh at the latest starlet, sent to make your insignicant lives better. This is what you can be like, not by selling your soul to the devel, but by joining the club, be in the gang. Anyway, there`ds loads thats happened to me in the last couple of decades, that in time I`ll post, like the hypocrisy, the turning of the blind eye to sin, depending on who you are, but now Ive had enough. I`m finally that salmon who is willing to lose all those so called "friends", those guys who if you dont go on a regular basis suddenly treat you like a pariah...don`t know yet if I`ll fall on my sword, or just fade away, but one thing is for sure...I aint goin quietly.....
The Salmon