In light of the current deep philosophical discussions whirling around, I thought I would post another topic to ponder. Hillary Step motivated me to start this topic by this comment on another thread:
If there is anything that I have learned in my 500 years of life, is that none of it matters much anyway.
We all end up in some dismal cemetry with drunken kids urinating on our tombstones anyway. The atheist next to the fundamentalist, the good with the bad and ugly, and Rod Stewart with Caruso.
Hillary Step? 500 years old? No, that's not my topic. Here goes:
In my relatively recent re-entry into the real world (i.e. DA'ing in Sept 2006), I have had many discussions with Little Drummer Boy and many internal thoughts as to my "spiritual future". When first leaving the borg, it's a little disorienting; I was so indoctrinated to not actually think for myself, that when I actually allowed myself to ponder 'What do I actually believe?', my answer was "I don't know what I believe." I still don't know what I believe. And here comes the main point of my thread:
Since I am merely a human, with the constraints on knowledge that being human entails, how can I really know what's right? And, in turn, how can I really be held accountable for my possible wrong beliefs, actions, etc. by a distant and non-communicative god? Let's play out a couple of different scenarios:
Possibility #1: There is a god, and the bible is more or less right. OK, if I believe this is so, then I will be held accountable to god when I die for my actions as a believer. How do I KNOW there's a god and that the bible is correct? I can have "faith", I can strongly believe it, but how can I KNOW it? I can't. I am limited by my state of being to know for a fact. There are many others of various religions who strongly believe in their way of thinking as much as Christians do, so what makes them any less 'right' than those of a Christian belief system?
Possibility #2: There is no god, and the bible is a book written solely by men, without any actual divine inspiration. How can I KNOW that there isn't a god? How can I know that the bible was just a compilation of man's thoughts and interpretations of circumstances facing the writers? I can't know it, because I can't teleport myself back in time and ask Moses "Did god really say that?" I can read books by others who have deeply researched the subject, where there are as many supporters of the bible's divinity as there are supporters of it's being man-made.
So, in the end, I still come back to "I can't KNOW for a fact anything. I can choose to believe something, based on my research and "soul-searching", but I can't know it. Therefore, if there is a loving god in existance, he would surely agree that, yes, humans are being asked to believe in something quite profound, based completely on the unseen and a book written 2000 years ago. So, is it 'loving' for god to hold humans accountable for not living up to his standards if we, by nature, cannot possibly be 100% sure we are on the right track?
If there is no god, then the end of our lives are simply that. However, no matter which way we believe, we, right now, must be accountable for our actions, as they will have long-term implications for our future and that of our children's. Our moral guidance should extend from our effect on other people right here and now.
I always, even as a good JW, thought of the "prize" of the New System as being a hollow endeavor. If we were truly in our hearts desirous of god's approval and wanted to do his will, we would, regardless of whether the New System was a reward for good behavior or not. Even if god said, Do my will, but when you die, there's nothing more, we should still do it if we were truly dedicated. I think that JWs, by holding the 'carrot' prize out of the New System, are undoubtably proving Satan's claim true, that man only serves god for the benefits man receives from it. But same goes for the rest of religions claiming a "prize" for obedience, whether it's heaven, Nirvana, or whatever.
These are just my thoughts in printed word. I make no claims to be a theologian, or any other well-versed expert in anything. I make no claims to any strongly held beliefs on topics such as atheism, christianity, evolutionism, creationism, etc., because I am currently undecided on all of it. I consider myself on a religious leave of absence for the present time.
I'd love to hear your feedback, whomever is interested!