Welcome BFD
I don't know what name you posted under - though I do recall an offensive screen name a couple days back, that I do not see today. Still, though the name was a little crass, that is past and Welcome.
One point in your post really caught my attention;
With the help of this discussion forum and the internet I can honestly admit to myself that the JWs do not have the truth. So now I know that God is not going to destroy me "really soon" and I am not spiritually dead even though I was DF'd in 1976.
If anyone doubts the power of this organization to destroy lives look here. Disfellowshipped in 1976! That is 31 years ago, most of which you spent in dread of the big A, and death at the hands of God for some 'sin' committed most of your life ago I assume. Even now, having shed that particular fear, the emotion of fear dominates your first post here on JWD, due to the cultic insertion into your thinking that 'it all will end' in a devastating moment of destruction - from somewhere.
Your perception of life, the world, and the universe has been [to date] terrifically altered by what you now know to be a 'false prophet'.
Each day on JWD gives me more reason to hate the manipulatative lies and control exercised by this cult.
Stick around - mellow out if you can. Urrrrr, the baggage this cult attaches to the backs of people is horrible.
Jeff