Oh Mavie...god my heart breaks for you because you love these people and they love you and this giant fucking white elephant called the Watchtower is going to be between you now. And I understand that incredible ANGER you feel when you try soooooo hard to open their eyes and I swear if all that I just read that you compiled THEY read...then honey there is NO getting inside their heads by you or God himself with a crowbar.
Dr. Phil says not to get a divorce until you have tried EVERYTHING to make it work and if you can walk away saying that you did...then you need to get a divorce. And you needed to get this divorce.
And then you put down the phone and you are shaking and sweating and freezing and feverish and pacing and pissed like you have never been before and sad like you are grieving a death and you feel helpless and want to hit something or run or scream and the desperation is overwhelming. And you go over what you said again and again wondering if there was something else you could have said or said differently and there isnt and it's so maddening that they are deaf to you....there are none so blind as those who will not see.
We love you honey...we understand like nobody can. Please please please keep on writing here and dont keep it inside. Your great writing will help someone else. It will.
huggggggs, Loves
