by minimus 36 Replies latest jw friends
I must admit that since leaving the Tower I have contributed to the groteque practice of CANNABLISM!
I gave my left kidney to a young man who was dying.
I realize now that I should of left his fragile life to Jehovah. He would have been garaunteed a life in the new world after dying in his early 20's. Since I did this disgusting act, he has finished university and gotten a great job in accounting.
Oh god, what have I done?!
Bryan
The funny thing is I have less "worldly" traits since I left. I smoked a lot of weed and did schrooms from time to time. I don't any more. I do speak my mind a lot more and I'm not afraid to be myself any more. Oh! and I do karate, jiu-jitsu and yoga now(got a silver metal in karate).
At first I noticed I was swearing alot more, but it has tapered off a little now. My husband never swore in his whole life until recently .....my bad influence I'm afraid. We never went out that much when we were witnesses ,and only drank once in a while . Now we like going out and listening to bands at local bars , and I enjoy drinking Long Island Ice Tea, but only enough to get happy. ( It only took once of too much to cure me of over doing it.) Sad note though I just found out today Long Islands have over 700 calories in them !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I guess i can either starve myself before going out or resolve myself to getting a whole lot fatter ! As for morals ..I would never cheat on my husband . I don't see the need to steal or lie . I grew up around smokers and smoked a few when I was a teen , The strangest thing is I have always craved to smoke ,even in my dreams .Being a witness kept me from giving into it .Now I think about trying it all the time ,but coming addicted to them frightens me .
I say the F word more
go to the biker bar......other than the smoking and girls showing ( . )( . ) They have pretty much the same rules as JW's.
I spend more time with my family and cook more now, which I did not have time for in the truth.
purps
I don't "rejoice" when a Tsunami or earthquake happens and thousands of people are left destitute.
I think "independently".
I do good things without a thought of a "reward".
I smoke a joint once in a blue moon.
FBF
I don't drink alcohol excessively or smoke but I indulge in intimacies with women when the occasion arises, and of course celebrating all the holidays, and birthdays, meddling in politics, visiting churches and monasteries every now and then.
One thing that my father told me when I was younger was that people that swore didn't have a very good grasp on the English language. Instead of using a proper word or sentence structure they'd use profanity.
That idea intrigued me and I monitored people's conversation and really found alot of truth in it. It's not a blanket statement as there are some very bright people that swear like sailors, but the advice he gave me was if you wanted to be taken seriously by people, don't swear.
To this day I don't swear in public. It doesn't offend me and I will swear if it's part of a story or joke, but I just see no reason to include it in my vocabulary when other words would suffice.
That reason made alot more sense to me then "don't swear because it's a sin".
It wasn't until much later that I had a chance to go to work with my father that I discovered he had a filthy mouth. I lost alot of respect for him, but still viewed his advice as being sound.
As for other vices, I was never one much for them. I drink, but my metabolism is so high I burn it off quickly. Drinking to excess would cost me a fortune. I don't like the idea of cigarettes, but when a friend brought back some cuban cigars from his honeymoon I had to try it... after all, it's a cuban.
As for my sex life, I'll just say that the society would not approve. :)
well, I guess I've been swearing so badly lately that one of my employees told me I had been throwing too many "f-bombs." And it is starting to piss off my husband, so I may have a problem here. My kindest name for other drivers is "asshole" although I have used worse. Otherwise, not too bad, don't drink as I don't like the feeling or the calories, don't do pot as I am allergic, don't do other drugs as they make you stupid. Don't smoke, although as someone else posted, I dream about smoking because my father was a smoker. In my dreams it tastes pretty good, but when I tried it, Yuck.
I've never cheated on anyone, but when I left the org., I kinda made up for lost time for a while. I had a funny experience when my extremely judgemental sister called me on my behavior and how it was a "bad influence" on her already criminal daughters. I said, "you know, I've screwed around a lot, and all I ever got out of it..." pause for my sister to lean forward expecting me to confess my mistakes, "all I got out of it was a GOOD TIME!" Made her laugh and pissed her off at the same time.
now that I am married (14 years now) I am not interested in screwing around, but it was fun while it lasted.
Sometimes I forget to shave on Saturdays, and I'll lounge around in my housecoat until noon. I might even forget to pray before eating my whole grain cereal. I'll eat Christmas dinner with my sisters, and have a small piece of birthday cake at work occasionally. I no longer read the watchtower.
Yup, I'm living the wild life!
W
When I was a JW I was a liar and greedy -- I drank but never got drunk.
When I first left, I drank, smoked, fornicated, and swore but no more lieing. I up front and honest about who I was and what I was doing.
Then I found myself enjoying being nice to people. The greed disappeared. Then the drinking stopped because I decided that I really just didn't like it all that much. I've been "out" twice in a year and each time I had a couple of drinks and not even a buzz.
The fornication changed to one person instead of whoever randomly caught my attention. I'll be getting married in June then we can say that the fornication is gone. I'm still smoking -- I don't know when I'll get around to trying to quit.
I am a much nicer, friendlier person now. Overall much more moral too.
