Oh crumpet! It must have been absolute torture for you to be born into a JW family!
Free spirits are not meant to be trapped in mind control cults.
I remember being a child and being absolutely certain that the people I lived with (my parents) were not really my parents but 'someone' had made a dreadful mistake 'placing' me with this pair of immature idiots!
I expect you probably felt the same.....more or less!
You remind me of a sibling of mine who was far to 'clever' for my parents and for the bOrg. He used to get a regular kicking from my parents for being such a smart Alec. Thing is.....he was always right and they were too dumb to recognise it!
A sad existence being a JW child!
Sometimes, we have to 'chew a foot off' to escape their grasp! There's always a scrap of ourselves still rotting in lala land!