by purplesofa 15 Replies latest jw friends
(((((((purps))))))))
I had a similar though the other day - desire to go back to 'safety' as it were. But then I thought, no, I'd have to give up being an adult with all its challenges and down times.
You up time when it comes will be all the more sweeter.
best wishes
bernadette
Hi purps My impression is that you are basically stepping up to a new stage for your life, putting aside some of the old things that you had. I first got this thought when you announced that you had lost your other job. Things like that often happen when we need a timeout to catch our breath in order to get ready to leave some old stuff in order to allow new stuff in our lives. This is (imo) arranged by us w the cooperation of others on a subconscious level. Change is always tough and stressful, but it seems to me that you are courageously going in the right direction - straight ahead. If you go by your gut instincts, i think you will do fine, even though the road may seem foggy and strange. Good luck. ((purps)) S
Purps, my thoughts and prayers are with you, sorry that you are going through so much a one time, when it rains it pours, to me I heard is said
"Life is 90% Attitude and 10% Reality"
The job is not what you want, but at least you still have a job, use it to build your back and body back from any injuries, use it to recollect your thoughts and figure out what you want to do, whether a home based business, a career change, some more schooling but always protect yourself and make sure that the company has no way of logging into your searches as a reason to fire you immediately.
The kids, it is time for them to fly on their own, my experience in life, there are givers and takers, many times are kids are takers because we allow them, My own personal experience this weekend,
After years of putting up with my step son, drug abuse, underage drinking in our home without us knowing it or condoning it, not coming home on nights, quiting school, YOU NAME IT. We went out find him an apartment this last week, my wife and I spent all day Friday-Sunday, painted it, cleaned it, shampooed the carpets, new blinds and curtains, filled the cabinets and refrig with food, all the furniture, new dishes and silverware, He is leaving tonight, he is 19 and it is time for him to GROW UP, no more free rides, get a fulltime job and welcome to the REAL WORLD! Your kids will make it and it is time for you to have a life! You have done your job and above and beyond, feel no regrets.
Safety is a state of mind that is only there from peace that comes from within when it is religious, I would encourage you to just simply go to God in prayer and simply allow Him to open your mind and heart up to the simplistic message of the Bible, start with Jesus own life, pray for peace and accept only the peace that God can give, being spoon fed is not the way to go, search, ask and keep knocking on your own and then you will have the peace from God through the Lord Jesus.
peace be with you purps,
abr
Well, I just got home and read everyones replies......thank you all so much for taking the time to write your kind words.
Also, I did not know, but my daughter put herself in rehab again today. I just found out when I got home. This is a complete issue in itself.
Work was better today, and I am going to take this time to make basically the same money with no stress whatsoever. Heal physically, and like Satanus said.
Things like that often happen when we need a timeout to catch our breath in order to get ready to leave some old stuff in order to allow new stuff in our lives. This is (imo) arranged by us w the cooperation of others on a subconscious level.
Amazing that at 47, I am just starting to make some decisions for myself, how I ever made it this long I will never know.
LIfe is really so different now. My mind is thinking differently and I suppose it has been scarey to rely some of my own thougts and decisions.
will come back to this thread a bit later.......thanks again everyone.
purps
edited to add:
As for your daughter and the car, the car is replacable. As a parent I'm sure you were a good one. My son, who is 29, developed a gambling problem and was told by his wife this past week she want's a divorce because of it. I was never a gambler and I don't feel guilty in any way because he didn't learn it from me. Point is we do the best we can as a parent and our children often screw thing's up on their own
My oldest son is here as his wife wants a divorce as well. By the time I was my sons age I had been married, built a house, had five kids and then divorced. He does have one son. His belongings are in two huge boxes and thats it. He is trying to get out on his own. I remember going back home one time and my mom charging me $400.00 a month to llive there with one child. I had my own phone put in .....in my name. Anyway, I did not stay there long!!!! purps
WOW! Sorry for coming to this thread late but let me quick to offer empathy and comfort honey!
You soooo need a break. You are doing the absolutely right thing - your kids are adults - time for them to take responsibility for themselves and time for you to have some time to yourself for sure!
I can totally sympathise with the job thing. Maybe while you can use all that spare time to look for something that you'll enjoy more. I have a really boring job too, but I keep it because it gives me time to study and leaves me the mental energy I need to focus on that - then maybe I can get a new job! I hope you can too!
Hang in there and look forward to being free and having time to nurture yourself for a change!
my job is differnt, my home life is different, and my religion is diffenent
So make up your mind to say "My attitude is different."
You have decided to move out and on your own. No matter
how different your job is, it still allows for that. A new home life
means change, and that can be made positive. Fresh attitudes
come with fresh paint sometimes. Or a special treat of some
knic-knac you always wanted. Or a nice quiet place to read in
your home.
Your religion is different. You are positive you were on the wrong
path in the past. Just ending that path is a great thing. The path
you are on is unsure, unknown, scary, different, or boring, or
whatever, but it's not the path that you knew was wrong.
I am glad that another day has given you new hopes. Build on that.
