I turned away from this evil hateful "God of Love" and am now an atheist. I have never been more at peace with myself in my entire life....
Whodathunk that atheists were such a peaceful, loving lot?
Ditto zeroday!
Looking Back, Do You Think You Ever Really "Loved" Jehovah?
by minimus 26 Replies latest jw friends
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nvrgnbk
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Hortensia
Nvrgnbk - gosh I hope I spelled that right - I don't think there is a god. Whatever is going on in the universe, it doesn't seem to me that humans are central to it. Obviously there is a lot going on in the universe about which we know nothing, so maybe there is a god. Not going to worry about it. It seems obvious to me that any of the gods we learn about from religions are just reflections of the people who made up the religions - which is why a lot of it doesn't make any sense. So, basically I don't believe in god, but don't entirely rule out the possibility that something/someone is running the universe, although I find it unlikely.
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Hortensia
oh gosh, I just went back and saw the smiley. What a dope!!!
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White Dove
yes, competely and fully. That was why it was so heart breaking for me to see the leadership in the congregations act so badly and unloving. I grew to find that if he is real, he didn't want me there in the first place. On the other hand, if he is real, the people are a reflection of their god, and I could never again have anything to do with them. I didn't want to continue worshipping a god that produced bad things in people. So now, I am searching for the REAL God, if he is real. I figure eventually he will manifest himself if he is real, if not, he won't and I will get tired of waiting and figure the answer is he is not real. I'm on the fence between atheism and umm...god-ism.
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lonelysheep
No.....I never really believed he was even there to begin with!
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R.Crusoe
It is difficult to really be in love with a woman you don't understand. You may love her but for as long as you're trying to get to know her, if that love isn't reciprocated so that you know it, things will fall apart.
For me, trying to get to know Jehovah has been that kind of journey - being told all the clues are in this Bible which is hard to fathom which is why I think the WTB&TS advise followers to take their interpretation as 'The Gradual Awakening' of 'Jesus chosen ones' and rest all your trust in their interpretation. They do this to save your from your own self torture in trying to work it all out. Trouble is, the reason you joined them in the first place was examining extensively the history of other faiths in order to reveal their untruths to you. So then asking you to completely give up any questionings you are wrestling with is a big ask. And then ripping up your personal life when that doesn't sit too well with you is an even bigger ask!
So no, I never really knew their God in a way that I could confidently go to others and say 'Look I've got the best news of your life....' In a way I could say I really love this God I can tell you about!
I feel I love a loving God but I'm lost as to what he wants with me! I think he may have given up on me and decided I need to go play a while in the time I've got left! Que Sera.
I wanted to love Jehovah and his firstborn angel Jesus, but I just don't understand it all in a coherent way. Feel like I'm teaching others how to hardwire a PC. I just don't know enough or understand it well enough to get someone else to give up their life based on my thoughts -and it's likely not gonna work to well at the end!
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JWdaughter
Fear and obligation. The only love was towards my mom, who was the one I wanted to please.