Oh Troubled Mind! How upsetting for you and your baby!
I'll tell you a story I don't like to think about, but I think this happens more than we know.
My mom use to raise beautiful prize winning Himalayan kittens. One of our relatives (mom's niece) asked for 2 which she was happy to give to this person as she was a true cat lover.
Only problem was that the father didn't believe in vet visits so promptly called over another brother who was infamous for putting pets (especially cats) down into a boot and then castrating them while their hind end was exposed at the top of the boot.
This really gets me sick because the father was a JW and should have known better. My Mother never forgave her brother for it.
My point being......you didn't mean to hurt, like my self, but the heart still hurts when we cause are pets pain.
Love,
r.