Thanks alot to everyone who took the time to consider my situation! Great insights, and support. For the time being I've decided to keep my thoughts, and feelings on things mostly to myself. My child brings up many things pertaining to 'The Truth', and it's then, when we are one on one, that I'm trying to bring balance into her thinking process. As far as the name 'Passive suicide', someone hit it right on the head when they guessed it meant waiting for Jah to take me out at the end. I have NO thoughts of doin' it myself....so please have no concern for that. I do share the thought, that if this were the truth, and I was to die for my thoughts, and actions, then so be it. I've read a few books, that have been very helpful so far, and will continue to read more.....the next on my list being 'Crisis of Conc.' May I also recommend: 'Who wrote the bible', by Friedman ' The end of Faith', by Sam Harris , as well. I definitley feel myself leaning heavily towards becoming Agnostic....and feel fairly content with it. As my feelings have not been shared fully with my wife....I will only be able to check in periodically. Again, thank you for all the insights, and it's a RELIEF to be able to express myself to people of simular circumstance. PS.