by reneeisorym 15 Replies latest jw friends
Look back to your first post ever... What was it?
Mine was: (Topic was: How many did you "bring in")
I brought in my ex husband but he is not active any more. It is just a shame though that because of JWs he does not feel capable of living up to being a christian. I always found it odd when I was still in that he was so active in his church before and why he couldn't be active with the JWs. Now I can understand.
I just introduced myself, and said this
I have been a witness over half my life, and until recently never had any real doubt that I had the truth, but now I am very unsure and am currently not attending meetings or taking part in the ministry. I have looked at several sites on the net, and have read some of the posts on this forum (you seem remarkably well informed about us!), and I must confess that some of the stuff I have read has shaken my faith severely, to the extent that I am no longer sure that I have the truth at all. I am seriously beginning to wonder if the last 23 years has been a waste of time
I da'd a few weeks later, and have no doubts now whether it's the truth or not - I know for certain it isn't. I don't think the years as a jw were a waste of time though, through them I met Trev, and got to know several other people who are no longer jws now and who I count among my friends.
This is my first post, some of you have read my hubby's story - Agent Smith - anyway I was just wondering if I should write a letter to disassociate myself or just leave things as they are. I have not been to meetings for about 8yrs but have only just come to realize what a load of rubbish the JW's teach. Now that I have read "crisis of conscience" I have no doubt that JW's are corrupt. I feel like I need make a formal break but I have loads of family that are JW and even though I don't see them that often I don't want to be shunned by them.
Have started asking my mom lots of loaded questions since then and she's really worried about me. lol
Hi I'm totally new to the forum as well so I thought I'd jump into this thread and we can all introduce ourselves together! I'm not used to forum netiquette so I appologise if I mess up.
As you can probably deduce - I hijacked another newbies introduction thread. They were called cyborg but I don't know what happened to him/her - maybe still here under another name? This was my first post anywhere on the internet, and I was scared to death of not being good enough. I got scared away a couple of times but picked myself up and dragged myself back. I'm glad I did now - and if anyone else isn't ... tough!
This was my first post anywhere on the internet, and I was scared to death of not being good enough.
Awwww! you are a wonderful addition to our group!!! I'm so happy you didn't get scared off!
I thought that this got deleted but when I looked up the member directory there it was. This was my first post under a name that was deemed inappropriate and deleted.
| brainfcked | Thank you all for your help | |
| Post 1 of 19 since 01-Feb-07 93 y 5 m | Well, I've been lurking here for a while and decided that today I would introduce myself. I was raised as a JW from the time I was 5 years old. I am now 46 and was DF'd in 1976 or 1977 I can't remember. It is amazing to me that I have always thought they have the truth and that I will be killed off when the big A arrives. Maybe thats why I smoke so much pot and drink myself blind a lot. I have learned so much from this forum and I am sad that I have wasted my whole life thinking that my death "is at the door step". Never went to college, never married (I'm gay) but I did have a long term relationship (17 years) that ended in 1997. I am now single. My mom started shunning me about 8 years ago. She had DA'd herself in the early 1990's but the brothers kept calling on her and she went back. She DA'd because she thought it would be better to die with her children in the big A then to live an eternity without them. Now she has "drawn a line in the sand" and won't have anything to do with 4 of her 5 children. She quoted a scripture about loving your children more than Jesus. I am OK with it most of the time but it still bothers me. No, it hurts. I never realzed how much I did not know about the JWs until I starting reading here. I spent my entire childhood and teen years in the "religion" and all I got out of it was that the world is going to end soon and all the wicked will be destroyed and the JWs are going to live forever on paradise earth. How pathetic. That's all I got out of it for 11 years. And I've allowed it to ruin my life. How the hell they allowed me to get baptised is beyond me. Anyway, thank you all so much for the TRUTH ABOUT THE TRUTH. Maybe I'll get the balls to get myself into some recovery program and see if I can regain any bit of my life that I have left on this planet. Until then....Cheers! Brainfcked BFD | |
Well I first started posting under the name "Cyborg" but some jackass hijacked my hello thread so I got pissed and deleted the account.
Hi, I am new to the db ,in fact this is the very fist time I've given voice to my inner conflict . Let me explain, i am a JW lifer ,now at 44 I feel it is time to begin some serious thinking for myself .This past summer I began searching the forbidden land of internet "apostate" sites , and low and behold people that had some of the very same feelings and thoughts I've stuffed down for many years .Okay some things I've read are a bit whacked, but alot seem to be honest sincere people sick of stiffling their own consciences. At times I think I am going to go crazy......I still attend meetings most of my family are jw and my poor children have embraced this religion because of me . I sneak around on the net when no ones around afraid of what they will think ....God isn't that sad ! I don't have a clue to what i am going to do I am slowly trying to fade with out upsetting my family to much . I can't bring myself to go door to door anymore though , think that would be to hypocritical . If you don't mind I need a place to vent and I thought your sight would be a safe haven.Thanks for any input ,support, or advice I can get ! Hopefully I will be able to post more details of my troubled mind soon. thanks.........
This was my first post ...under the title "Seeking a little normalcy for a troubled mind, is that so wrong "
Hello,
I was a pioneer, an elder, and a bethelite. I can't say too much more now because my family is still in. I have been lurking here for nearly two years and just now summoned the courage to post. Thanks to one and all for being there. Much love.
sorry about the YELLOW
http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/71576/1136487/post.ashx#1136487
oh my .i've changed somewhat. no more prayer or worrying about god.
i miss being spiritually minded sometimes. but yes i'm bitter about the lack of love, the lack of compassion , and the lack of practical help from anyone in the org. so i started looking on the web for personal stories of people. i dont really read topics about how the society is wrong and stuff but i am intensly interested in peoples lives. i found i wasnt alone having occasional nightmares about the paradise book pics i'd seen as a child. i found i wasnt alone in feeling abandoned and feeling like myself as a person just doesnt matter to the elders. I've decided to trust in God, pray thru jesus and to try to manifest the fruits of Gods spirit in my daily life . showing love joy peace kindness goodness faith etc.
but its great to find a couple of forums where people might understand what i've been thru. and what i continue to go thru. just think .. if the society set up a forum for gathering witnesses together, i might never have had to search online for one.
