Terry, Mate, hold on. Keep your mind and heart open. Don't go out looking for her, just FOCUS on LIVING YOUR LIFE and getting the most out of it that you personally can, and just when you have completely stopped looking for Mrs. Right, she may just fall into your lap. Literally or figuratively, time will tell.
I met my "soulmate" and married her many years ago. Nothing will ever come even close to that experience. I was not worthy and blew it.
Can't fool myself that comes along more than once (if that).
A person is either ready (and worthy) of a great relationship or they are not. I'm not and never will be.
If I don't honestly face that as a fact of life I'm in for sad times, guv'nor.
I'm able to give and take in short doses of inspiration. However, long term.....? Put your money on a different greyhound, matey.