ChoosingLife.....it's been a learning experience for the many of us who have already walked down the path you are now on in your search for truth (spiritual).
We see church joining, book reading, class taking people that leave the dubs to find spiritual truth and refreshment to come to the part in the road that says " nobody REALLY knows what life is all about, but if you can't take that for an answer and be content, then keep traveling". Your next stop will probably be at the place in the road called" the bible can't be believed".
You know full well the bible speaks of those who will not attain salvation because of remaining sinners and not living a christlike life nor even believing in the giver of life. The bible has so many warnings for the faithful not to slip back into their old ways and lose their life by being thrown in with the old snake and his buddies to eternal damnation. Even Jesus didn't believe he'd spare all.
So, your gonna find a christian church that goes along with you in what you yourself believes is "truth", or your gonna find that you can't put stock in any of the churches because there is conflict in the bible to begin with, hence you'll question the bible itself and start down another road. My guess is it will be the latter. Don't forget to rest now and then.
Gumby